Catch me if you can!

A second new year

2009-01-26T08:06:00.000+08:00

I missed my run this morning =(

Not to beat myself up over it but I NEED to correct the problem of oversleeping. Grrr. Anyhow I'm making a trip to Malaysia today with the fam so that means hours in the car!

I need to get ready now and before I leave.....

Happy Lunar New Year all!

Is this for real?

2009-01-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

I tasted crab for the first time since primary school yesterday. No, really!

It. Was. Fantastic.

Okay, at least it made my bad evening happier. AT LEAST it didn't bring its problems onto the dinner table unlike someone. It irritates me at the thought of that. Oh well, we earn some and lose some.

Hey I'm starting to feel jittery about this whole move. What if I don't adapt well there? What if drivers run me down and big dogs gobble me up while running? What if The Move wasn't needed AT ALL? I've been having nightmares recently and they all surround the theme of murder and revenge. As far as I can remember one of those scary dreams had me being shot down by a psychotic gunman! I didn't die from the gunshot though (though I didn't feel pain at all) and I pretended to be dead. And then, here comes the truly gory part- HE WANTED TO MUTILATE ME.

Somehow I ended up punching his face over and over again till I woke up with my heart rate at record level. My mum calls it the pre departure anxieties. You think so?

Then just last night it was something as weird but I don't remember it. Good!

So... that just leaves me with my running plan for this week. I'm feeling tired already and my legs are less springy. I'll take it as a sign to go easy then before returning with a vengeance next week!

Blow wind blow!

2009-01-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

The winds have been pretty darn strong recently! That explains why my hair's always a mess. Um, but I'm pretty proud with my new mane..... hey! At least they have been properly bundled up when I'm out running, but with the wind in my face I do not like that feeling one bit. Too much wind and my eyes hurt!

I've been baking quite a bit recently. Nothing really fanciful though I really want to bake my own bread! I got my first mishap a few days ago! While trying to make sweet potato fries I left it too long in the oven and it came out entirely black! I will love to try a cake someday, or a muffin or bread. Have I mentioned that already? Apart from that I have finished a book as well as finish and unfinished book. For the unfinished book it was a on-off affair where I read it half-heartedly. Boy, I regret that but I'm too lazy to re-read the first half of the book! That's because the book's a bomb! It IS the best book that I've ever read! Presenting to you...... To Kill A Mockingbird!

My timetable's kind of out already. I say kind of because I need to decide on my modules and plan it! So far it's either the modules cost more than I thought (each module cost you money!) or that the timing simply puts my life out of whack. Currently things are NOT looking very rosy :(

Oh well. Approximately 2 more weeks!

26 more days

2009-01-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

With meet ups to be done, cards to write, things to buy, things to pack, briefing to attend, visa to settle.... man, nobody ever said it was easy!

Running was also not easy today. Not only did I feel pooped, I literally pooped. Yes, in a deserted toilet near a golf course! My ass hurts so much with the movement of the legs... haha. But I did finish the run, though I felt obligated to do it every morning now. Do anyone of you feel this way?

Anyhow, I'm baking today! Food pics up real soon!

More blocks down!

2009-01-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! The passport's number been updated!

It's down to the home stretch right now. Clear the damn health requirements and I'm through. If only I'm able to tell the immigration guys "I'm a runner" and let me pass right! If only life was that easy!

I took an off day today and I can't wait to get up and running tomorrow! I was feeling sore on Sunday after incorporating hills into my runs. It's been good so far and I kind of like the power surge that I psyched myself into everytime I approach a hill! What's in store tomorrow is the making of a quiche! Hmm... I shall update once it's done. Anyway, to backtrack a little I learnt a very important lesson of man vs machine on Sunday. I almost got knocked down by a lorry! Lucky that guy wasn't going very fast and managed to slow down in time. Thank God.

This week has started off well and I hope to keep it that way! It is only 28 days left before I fly so I hope to make every opportunity left here worthwhile, especially time with my family and dear friends (:

Countdown to 3 Feb

2009-01-02T11:42:00.000+08:00

32 days left.

As mentioned, I met up with some fantastic folks yesterday. It had been a long time I laughed so much! I kind of feel more at ease than at home because I get to be who I am and there seems to be some sort of a...... independence? That's quite scary because on the other hand I really like my family too, just that they do drive me nuts at times. Anyhow, we had a great dinner at Pasta Waraku followed by a pool session. None of us, I repeat, NONE knew how to play pool! It was more like a socializing event than a hardcore, win-it-all pool session. Just the way I like it!

I've decided to take a day off today as I do not want to rush into training as yet. By next week I shall be fully integrated into my new sleep pattern of sleeping early and rising before the humidity here does.

I'm also off to see a lawyer later today to 'certify' my passport. Silly visa stuff that hangs in the air kind of stinks. Oh well.

Aloha!

2009-01-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

It's the new year! I snoozed off despite wanting to wake up at 6am for my run today. It was a calculated move though. Since it is a public holiday there might be less traffic on the roads. Alas, I tried out a new route today and it was amazing!

The new route turns right at Mandai Road instead of heading straight where all the pollution from the construction works is. It's new perks include hills, less traffic so that I can run on the roads and a tropical atmosphere. It certainly doesn't hurt to know that you are running near the zoo too! Also, nothing beats having to run up a hill after running just to get back to my house. Oh hilly hill, 'twas the gem before my eye! If only I had discovered it before right?

I am meeting up with some of my ex colleagues later because one of them is flying off to Melbourne tomorrow. Hey, that's SOME company although Adelaide is going to be a long way away.

Happy new year folks! Hopefully it will be a good one :)

And finally... New Year's Eve!

2008-12-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

Wow, it has been one heck of a year. A year of hope, depressing downtime, learning, enlightenment and growing up. I have never felt so depressed in my life, lived with a room mate, looked beyond the Singapore shoreline, became sure of my values and exceeding my own expectations for my first half marathon. Other than the depressing few moments spent in a college I hated as well as studying something that I did not want (but I did well nonetheless, more on that later).

Right now I have looked further and as I see the roadblocks being brought down one by one I get excited by the many opportunities that I can have studying overseas. I also want to make this work well, graduating with good honours. No screw ups, baby. I'll not hear of it. I am going to do something that I like and find interesting despite doing well for English too. As mentioned, I got an A, a B and B+ for the rest of my modules. I was shocked when I saw the 'A' for HL101 (Intro to literature) since I walked out of the exam hall half an hour earlier and squeezing out a mere 2 page essay for the 'Persona' question. Yes, 2 pages. 2!!!!

Running wise I hope to secure a good year of base training since I'll be heading overseas and checking out new routes while immersing myself in a totally new place and culture. I plan to take this as seriously as any other marathon training to get some solid base in and hopefully attempt a marathon in 2010 or something. I may also enter a few 5ks, 10ks or even a half marathon if circumstances allow! Eventually I want to be able to at least run at a faster pace, probably at 5:30 min/km for a sustainable distance.

I do have a few goals and resolutions though. Here it goes!

Resolution:

1) Be less of an angry punk.

2) Be sure of my values and beliefs.

3) Become more sociable. Not the party animal, but to actually look forward to socializing.

Goals:

1) Maintain good base training and hit a 5:30 min/km for a distance longer than 10km.

2) Get used to running in cold weather.

3) Maintain good nutrition after coming off 18 years of bingeing.

4) Maintain good relationships with my family and friends.

Bring it on '09!

I did it

2008-12-30T08:28:00.000+08:00

Momma's back yo!

I went out for a short run this morning. Nothing long, just a 2.4 km run. It didn't felt fantastic either. My gut was twitching, my legs felt heavy and my heart rate was high. But I sure felt my best! I hope that the injury's well taken care of by now as I continue training.

Lotsa stuff to do today, including a medical check-up.

1 more day to the new year!

The day I ripped the dress open

2008-12-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

Well, almost.

I was at Miss Selfridge looking for my little black dress when I almost became the hulk's best friend. I didn't realise that the zip was right at the side of the dress when I thought,"Shit, I'm stuck in this" and tried to yank it off me. Either that, or the zipper was so comfortably well hidden that I failed to spot it.

While doing grocery shopping today I discovered this gem:

Who says high fiber, whole grain healthy stuff have to be nasty tasting?

This is the best cereal I've ever tasted! It is sweet enough to satisfy my sugar craving while giving me the proteins and carbs. Awesome stuff. The only problem is that Singapore doesn't stock enough of this! I have to go all the way to Jason's to get it instead of a nearby mart. On top of that I realise that Singapore doesn't stock Dove's dark chocolates too. Why oh why?!

Anyhow I should be sleeping soon. Tomorrow I shall start my training (yes, I woke up late today, drats!), hopefully get my medical check-up over and done with and wait for my visa to be processed.

2 more days to the new year!

Gone

2008-12-28T13:01:00.000+08:00

The photos from the trip are gone, much to my chagrin and horror.

I have no clue what happened to it or why it occurred. It's a sad way to end a trip no? I promise I'll take even better photos the next time I go there (hint: Standard Chartered Hong Kong Marathon).

I've been busy the past few days. Hurrying to get my new passport done, more shopping and resting that footie. I hope to be able to get out in the morning tomorrow for a short run. Here's the plan:

Run for 5 days a week, 2km each.

Sounds easy enough. I will slowly build up my fitness from there, increasing the mileage, slow and steady. Then it will be a year of base training, hopefully to hit a 6min/km pace comfortably and enter a few 5k's and 10k's if circumstances allow. I will also aim to get used to running in cooler climates.

I keep my fingers crossed that my footie cooperates.

The year has swooshed by again! It's down to single digits for the coming new year and in comes the new year resolutions. I will blog about it. Promise.

No no, not yet!

2008-12-22T13:02:00.000+08:00

Nope, photos are not out yet! After a two nights of deep sleep I awake with quite a bit of things to finish. I need to:

1) Apply for a new passport

2) Apply for my student visa along with all its ILLS. By which I mean the going down to the embassy, getting checked by the doc blah blah.

3) Journey to the West to settle my laptop and academic stuff

4) Shop for winter clothes (this is driving me a little insane but I kind of like it)

5) Upload photos. Yes yes, I will!

And meanwhile, I shall wait for that little tendon in my left foot to get the strain off its face. Yes you, tendon. I just want to run. Why can't you be good like your brothers and sisters and quit looking at me with those painful eyes? I want to run damn it!

2 days later

2008-12-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

I have set foot in sunny Singapore 2 days ago, and I AM TIRED. Gosh.

Shall post proper about the trip later while I brood over the left footie who's still aching from all the shopping!

Off to Hong Kong!

2008-12-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

Yes, despite the bird flu scare.

It's time for bed kids!

Medieval eating

2008-12-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

Due to my insane curiosity, I brought rye bread home when it wasn't necessary at all. The best part?

I get to pay the price.

Rye bread tastes horrible and it looks and smells like what I'll feed my dog. No kidding.

Now I'm wondering how medieval people handle their gut at this.

Pain, YEOW!

2008-12-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

A few days after my first half marathon I have a stinging pain in my left outer foot.

Perhaps it didn't enjoy serving me on Sunday. Perhaps Jane wasn't meant for me (gasp!). Perhaps..... some tendon or ligament is torn.

But no, I refuse to believe that.

Okay fine. Maybe just a strain.

But then, why now? One week before I head off to Hong Kong? And.... my plans to run casually there? Worse still, MY FITNESS!!!

Sigh. Everything just looks gloomy right now, just like today's weather. It made my trip to ECP a waste. I hate you rain, I truly hate you.

The First Half Marathon: SCSM 2008

2008-12-10T12:54:00.000+08:00

Sunday mornings are traditionally reserved for church in my family-- until I picked up running this year. My main and only running goal this year was to finish a half marathon at SCSM this year. To make it to the start line was exciting, yet nerve-wrecking as hell.

I woke up early-- 4am to be exact-- laid in bed and waited for the alarm clock to ring. I couldn't stop thinking,"OMG, finally." I got restless and jumped out of bed right after my alarm rang, ate and made sure that I was hydrated and got dressed. While getting dressed I couldn't help but compare myself to dressing up for war. Ha.

My dad was nice (as always!) to drive me to the race venue (thanks daddy!). Alighted and breathed in deeply. The cool morning air, the bodies getting pumped and ready, body glide and all. It was a congregation of runners. Better than mecca and better than anything. It was about getting yourself to do something that many can't or do not want. It was the air of champions. Tacky but yes, it was.

I deposited my bag at the Padang, hearing Jane (Mizunos wave inspire 4) squelch and to my horror, there were mud all over my shoes! I quickly got over the mess and headed to the underpass to the starting area. By then the announcer was already urging all half-marathoners to proceed to the start line. Time check: 6:10am.

I had no idea where the start was. Occasionally I saw crowds of people running and it was either they were full marathoners or just warming up. I decided to do what I always do-- when in doubt, follow the crowd! Soon enough I found myself standing within a huge crowd of half-marathoners, all primed and ready. The inner demon emerged again and I promptly squashed it with a just-have-fun attitude. My mantra was that if my cough was to take over, I will still enjoy the run and that if I CAN run, anything below a 2:20 goes.

The pre-race jitters disappeared when the start gun went off. From where I stood I had to walk a little before hitting the timing mat. I lapped it all up and enjoyed jostling with the many like-minded individuals with varying goals. Soon I was cruising along the Fullarton Hotel and what a sight to behold! The sight from the city was magnificent, and to run along it was like magic come alive. Along the race I kept a lookout for the distance markers and hopefully, the 2:20 pacers. I was surprised at the number of people who needed to porta-potty though. Guys did their stuff by the roadside and I TRIED NOT TO LOOK. Girls, oh well. There were no bushes in sight. Either that or they were just damn shy!

1km to 5km: I decided to be conservative and deliberately kept a slow pace. In fact, I had a split of 6:58 for the 1st km. My legs felt pretty good at that point and I decided to speed up a little, doing a little weaving and dodging from the crowd as usual. Despite looking out for the distance markers I could not find the 2nd km, and the 3rd, the 4th and the 5th. Weird.

6km to 10km: The distance problem continued to plague me. I had no idea what pace I was running at and so I resorted to listening to my body instead. In fact, sometimes I felt that I was running at 5min/km pace. Ate my first GU gel and threw away the handheld bottle. At around 8km I finally saw a distance marker and then 3 minutes later I saw the 9km marker! Funny. I couldn't have been running at Kenyan pace, could I? My body was also giving me goosebumps. I kept my fingers crossed and made sure I drank at every opportunity.

11km to 16km: The distance problem persisted and by then I have resorted to stopping my watch with the hope that I can manually calculate the split times at home. Downed my second GU and stopped for water at--get this-- every stop. I didn't let that get to me though, my time was still looking comfortable within the 2:20 zone. I used two runners ahead as my pacers, thinking that they were the adidas pacers........ until I saw the real 2:15 pacer himself.

17km to 21.1km: My thighs were starting to smart and the soles of my feet were hurting from all that pounding. I also began cursing myself for the 5min/km like pace I maintained during the race. With the cough duly suppressed I started muttering,"Pain is temporary. Pride is forever". What pride it was I didn't know. I just made sure I had something to distract my mind. My feet were hurting so badly that at 17km I walked for awhile. I took it a little at a time and with 2 km left in the bag I pushed hard and ramped up the running. Along the road this lady tried to use me as her pacer!!! I guess I wasn't prepared for it and chickened out, allowing her to pull ahead instead. Towards the end I slowed down considerably, watching others zip by while I struggled. My lack of training and the illness were taking a toll on me. My gut was also beginning to wrench and hurt. But no way am I going to give up now and with whatever gas left in the tank I pushed ahead and raised my arms at the finish line, all glad that everything was over.

I was now a half-marathoner.

Post-race: I staggered and struggled with standing up straight. The sheer number of people was mad and I had to take a good five minutes to reorientate myself. The first thing was to grab a bottle of water and rehydrate. Then it was the usual taking out of championchip, collecting my medal, cool down, grabbing free bananas, bars and sports drink and soaking in the atmosphere. The crowd got to me this time though and I soon left. BUT that was not before getting confused and ending up walking a huge round before I finally found the underpass.

All in all the race atmosphere was good, despite the hiccups with regards to the distance markers, crazy crowd merging, rude staff etc. On a more personal level I could have trained harder and if I could, not contract a fever and cold one week before my race! I guess this is the trial and error of learning and I was glad to have 1) finished the race and 2) finish within my goal time.

Gun time: 2:20:00

Chip time: 2:17:55 (!!!!!)

385th/2962 (female) and 38th/638 (age group)

I'm still riding on a high yo!

My first half marathon!

2008-12-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

I did it.

I made it to the start line and never looked back. I even beat my own expected time!

It was truly a magical feeling. Race report coming up soon!

Itchy witchy scratchy wacky, NOT!

2008-12-06T10:11:00.000+08:00

Mum's the best (:

She dragged me to the doc so that I will be able to run in Sunday. Perhaps she saw how important this race was for me or how running is so much a part of my life that I cannot imagine missing out on something so great. Simply put, to miss church for a running event shows how much I love running. I didn't say I'm a good example for all Christians. Muahahahaha.

I feel a ton better now. The wonders of science!

I'm also starting to freak out a little. Have I trained enough? Have this latest bout of fever and cold made me an invalid? My legs have lately felt like they were cast in stone. I am afraid that I cannot run tomorrow, or that I will collapse halfway all humiliated, unglamorously so. Even then, there are questions left unanswered. Should I run with Reddy (ipod shuffle), will Jane (Mizuno Wave Inspire 4) screech to a functionality halt or will the drink station run out of water?!

I think I'm worrying too much.

Damn you, pre-race jitters.

My mantra tomorrow: Take this all in. You're a runner. Enjoy your first half.

A common cold, with a little viral infection

2008-12-05T18:28:00.000+08:00

That was the diagnosis.

I guess my aim of running a sub 2:20 is officially over, considering the fact that last week's pilgrimage was the last run before the half. Oh well, life's like that. Sometimes you get it and sometimes you don't. I'll suck it all up, learn my mistakes and make sure I smash my timing the next time. Until then it will be about improving my aerobic fitness, finding enjoyment in my runs and exploring new frontiers Down Under.

As for this Sunday I aim to take it slow, walk if necessary and totally enjoy the atmosphere.

Cough, cough. Who's there?

2008-12-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

My throat's getting worse. It has evolved into a nagging cough!

It's disgusting. I mean, just get off my back can't you?!

On a brighter note I've been notified by a lodge. I'll keep my fingers crossed for good news. Also, I received my race pack today. Looking at it makes me want to race on Sunday despite the lack of running these days. Sigh, it will be up to the doc tomorrow.

Yes, I'm going to the doc to get my bronchi fixed.

When euphoria fades

2008-12-03T16:17:00.000+08:00

All you can do is stare at the possibility of not having a place of choice to stay.

It sure sucks.

And it kind of sucks to have parents that don't understand my anxiety. One doesn't seem to know anything while the other presumes to know everything.

I know I know, some puritans are going to bullshit at this point how I should be grateful and stuff. But desperate times call for desperate measures, not sentiments. I will have plenty of that later.

I also woke up late today and missed my 8km run. Now I'm too lazy to move my ass outside. That makes it 5 days in a row without a run.

At least now I'm grounded on reality to see that life overseas ain't going to be that easy.

Hear me croak

2008-12-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

My voice is still not back yet. I can't speak more than five words before the itch sets in and make me cough till my head drop.

Anyhoo, it was an adventure with my parents today. We got lost looking for the IDP office, found it and submitted my acceptance letter. Now that it's done, there's a lot of other issues to settle.

I haven't been running since last week's pilgrimage. The fever and sore throat has zapped away any strength I have left in my body and my chest feels heavy. No, sadly it ain't got nothin' to do with the size of my boobs.

Recent events have happened so spontaneously that I hardly have any time left to pause and stop. My unfinished book (since the start of this year!) remains unfinished, my runs have been affected, my plans have been altered on a daily basis, my sewing lay brand new and so is cooking. Whew, that felt good! So, from now till then I have to draw up a huge to-do list and make sure I follow through.

But before that, a nice and easy 8km run at Bishan Park tomorrow, no less.

All Bad Things Come To An End

2008-12-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

I got this 4 hours ago.

Oh my god

Oh boy

What the hell

It's true. Every. Single. Word. I cannot stop reading it over and over again. Get this:

I. Am. Going. To. Adelaide.

YESSSSSSS!!!!!!!!

Weeks of agony have finally passed. Moments of tension gone by. Uncertainty has been turned to certainty. Doors closed have opened new doors. Times of feeling let down have given way to times of realization. Now is the time for redemption, for the moment I dared not dream of, for the new perspectives, for the opportunities and yes, the welcomed uncertainties.

Tonight let me swim in euphoria. My throat may keep me mute, but it cannot clam me up entirely. I shall celebrate tonight.

Mmmm, I just finished a red bean bun. Let me skip the calorie counting tonight.

YAHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

duh-oh

2008-11-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

I feel as if a huge rock has been lodged in my throat.

I feel that my head weighs a ton heavier. But no, I'm not smarter.

I've just recovered from a 39 degree Celsius fever, fearing for the worst.

I'm afraid that the fever stemmed from heat exhaustion and I'll not be able to run the half-marathon.

The half was all that I wanted this year within my short running history. It represents my forage into longer distance running that many will not even dare to cast their eyes beyond. It is a preparation for my first marathon. It is the confidence shot that I can run longer than the mass marketed 10ks.

Suddenly it seemed that I may not be able to run the half, all because of a fever. A fever that I got from training in my place of birth.

That's Singapore for you.

This weekend has been traumatic in many ways. A Singapore lawyer was murdered by terrorists in Mumbai, the Thai conflict escalated and a WalMart worker was trampled to death by Black Friday shoppers.

The world couldn't have been crazier.

PS: And I cut my finger real badly with a penknife today.

2:15, possible?

2008-11-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

I made my pilgrimage to East Coast Park today, armed with sunblock lotion and powergel/GU gel and my life rod- The Water Bottle. I have learnt my lesson from last week. Eat enough carbs, hydrate, consistent pacing and sleeping well. Okay, not quite the sleep part but hell, I got my miles in!

What's a college student on a shoe-string budget got to do with her Polar RS100? I couldn't measure distances unlike big brother Garmin so it was mostly up to my intuition. I was pretty reserved about it, and it turned out that I ran wayyyy more than I was supposed to. Teehee! I'm so lovin' myself.

My plan was to run at a comfortable pace, take the total time and calculate at home later. I'm pleasantly surprised!

Distance: 23 km

Pace: 6:24 mins/km (take that!!)

So, if I extrapolate that time I might hit a 2:20 at most for my first half-marathon! Just the thought of it makes me giddy with excitement.

Race day adrenaline and divine intervention. I do hope that they allow me to fly through the last few miles.

Pace my way

2008-11-26T10:38:00.000+08:00

Howie!

I'm pretty psyched up this week with much needed motivation flowing from within. I credit that to the internet! It has been quite a discovery, knowing that my princess like body is within my control and that it is mind over matter all the time. I just have to make this princess listen and obey me yeah!!!

So, princess has been obedient to my command this week. I pulled her out of bed early yesterday and today, pushing her over her proclaimed lethargy and after 3 km she will finally relent and my legs feel O SO GOOD! My race is slightly a week away from now and I am pretty relax about it. No real fast timing to pursue, enjoy the race and see how is it like running The Singapore Marathon. Anyway, I've realised the importance of pacing and did a little trial and error yesterday. No tempo run, no intervals, no planned hill workout. Just pure running the way I like it. Now that's important...

Split times: 6:21 mins/km

6:49 mins/km

8:35 mins/km

6:13 mins/km

6:09 mins/km

That was for the last 5 km of my run. If only I had known rrrright....

Oh well, all said and done. I learn from my mistakes. In fact, I have a rough plan in my head for my training after the half-marathon. Maybe, just maybe, I'll be running in Adelaide come sometime in December, exploring the cool (I hope) running routes there.

No Wednesday escapade today because I'm meeting up with a high school friend. It is cool meeting up with people, especially the guys and girls from N*U, they were hilarious, witty and never short of slapstick humour.

Long run: The inner devil

2008-11-22T16:47:00.000+08:00

My body was being a huge wuss this morning, whining as I dragged it out of bed, dressed it up and fed it with good food. Even then, it threw tantrums that it didn't feel like running and the roads around the house were too boring (it was right on that actually). I thought that since the roads around my house were indeed too boring, I might just try to unexplored biggest parkland in Singapore-- East Coast Park. Such a last minute change can derail any prior planning and that was exactly what happened!

This is my stuff, prepared the night before the long run. I added a note to remind my princess-like body that it will regret from the lack of training come 7th December.

And of course, an upbeat mood helps!

But not for long of course because while on my way to the bus-stop I remembered mistake number 1-- my cap! Okay, maybe, just maybe, I may be lucky enough to have a cloudy day ahead.

I went off to ECP, missing my stop but still manage to find my way there ultimately. It was almost 8.30 am, with the sun starting to make its presence felt. As the sun got more ferocious I realised mistake number 2-- sunblock lotion! So, I have postponed my day of seeing a tan line free skin. Also, mistake number 3-- get to ECP early if you want to avoid the sun. That means no placating my body at 5.30 in the morning. It's either you go or you don't. This princess still has a lot to learn.

I still have one more week left before I start to taper for my half-marathon. Next week I will head down to ECP again, exploring the route towards Marina Promenade. I sure hope it's a great one though!

Hear my war cry!

2008-11-19T13:07:00.000+08:00

It's Wednesday again and it can only mean the weekly Wednesday Exploit! Strangely my dad was at home and asked if I needed lunch. Oh who needs takeaway food when you can prepare such a delicious meal yourself?

I slathered jam on multi-grain bread, top up with tuna in springwater and cottage cheese and lettuce for added crunchiness. This week's scrambled egg was a lot more successful! I am now cringing at the amount of water I added last week. I scaled down the amount of water used for obvious reasons, cooked the egg in low heat and viola! You gotta love it. For salad I had the same cabbage that was used in the sandwich with tomatoes and carrot sticks. As you can see the salad was a huge bowl and I didn't finish it in the end. Shall probably save it as a snack later. As for dessert it was lots of low fat yogurt with chopped strawberries, bearing in mind that I need calcium for my bones that work hard while I run. It's like a little reward for their hard work.

I am quite stuffed from all the food. Hopefully I will graduate into baking really soon! Can't wait.

Anyway, yesterday was one hell of an emotional turmoil. I wanted to wake up in the morning to put in a good 10 km only to find myself still in bed by 10 am. Great, I shall run in the evening then. The problem with putting off runs is that you tend to procrastinate and fret about the missed workout the whole day. It's as if you've missed your caffeine shot in the morning and you are craving for it. I toyed with the idea of doing my tempos on the treadmill with full knowledge that it will not yield much results, or a simple workout with core work involved. Then I looked at my timetable this week and bother, it doesn't allow me enough time to rest if I I choose to slack! So is was a very back and forth kind of debate with myself whether to run or rest, between the voice of "you can do this" and "why bother?". Fast forward to the evening I was pretty pissed at my mum over some trust issues so I got my ass off my house and did a few loops at Bishan Park. I chose to leave my HRM at home thinking that I ought to let off some steam instead. Yet I still managed four 1 km tempos towards the end and most importantly, with me feeling good. Not great, not high, just better. I think that was the important part-- relax.

Since starting to run I have had a hard time with this inner negativity, sometimes allowing myself to listen to its damned voice which resulted in my lousy training schedule. I am still learning though, and will probably throw in some tricks to defeat that ass.

Yeah!!! YEEEE-HAAAA!!!

Friday escapade

2008-11-14T13:27:00.000+08:00

So, here's what I had for lunch. Scrambled eggs, salad with a dollop of cottage cheese, garlic bread (a whole loaf!) and soy milk.

I felt that the scrambled eggs were too watery. I like them moist, but I added way too much water this time. Also, the amount of sugar I added was suitable for two eggs, not the one egg that I used. Yikes. As for the salad, note to self. Please use the lemon S-P-A-R-I-N-G-L-Y. My god, they were dour sour! The only thing that tasted nice was the garlic bread, not made by me of course. Breadtalk never fail me so yeah, it was good!

I wanted to run to AMK this morning but I woke up late. This is a bad, bad habit that I have to change. I need to run so that I can eat no? Probably I will hit the gym later, if time allows. Today's going to be busy with the moving out of hall and finally having the heart to study! Seriously, my heart is already in Australia. Oh and I got 65/100 for my History review, also one of those grouchy last minute work with my heart flung Down Under. Gee, it ain't that bad I hope.

Spontaneity

2008-11-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

Guess what guess what?!?! The HL102 essay that I did last minute while being all grouchy about the whole moving to Ozzy thing AND surviving on 1 hour of sleep the night before turning the paper in got a friggin' B+! Oh my gosh, I really don't know how I did that, but I certainly feel more secure of my abilities now. Hehe. Hey, B+ from someone with zilch literature background is quite an achievement okay! I haven't got back Brian's essay because he left before I reached the office. Sheesh, I don't know what else now. Oh well.

By the way tomorrow is free and easy day again! Man, I really enjoy the freedom of planning my own meals, more so if I can prepare them myself. Purely cathartic. Pure pleasure. Now if only my parents hadn't planned to buy those bread all at the same time I might have been a little happier. Okay yes, technically they wouldn't force me to eat out or prepare some other meals, but I wouldn't want to waste their money right? Still, I relish the chance to rearrange something nice for myself. Stay tuned for fooood! Oh anyway reading food blogs have given me a pretty good idea of making my own meals in Oz. Cool.

Weather to run

2008-11-13T10:30:00.000+08:00

The weather's been kind of bitchy. It rains when I want to run, but doesn't when I am low on motivation. It's... irritating!

Later.

Toasty

2008-11-12T15:31:00.000+08:00

The absence of a matriarchal figure at home on certain days means that I get the whole kitchen to myself! I get to handle earthen wares, crack eggs, mix and beat things together, chop things up and roll out the oil-- stuff that I find extremely liberating. I'm kind of into cooking recently and I have been trawling websites to find recipes even for the simplest of meals and thinking of ways to modify it. Yes, healthy option included. So here's my lunch, Toasty as I shall name it!

I could have made the apple slices thinner but then I was lazy and since it was for myself I didn't want to be too fussy about it. I tried 2 different ways of frying the egg-bread. One was egg and bread by itself and to the other I added margarine! The one with margarine tasted less eggy so maybe it can be a form of preventing getting too sick of eggs. This was the first time I tried Chardonnay! It's made me felt really really warm after that, but the taste was not too heavy which was nice.

Maybe next time I can try the blueberry topping that I saw on Nigella, or some chocolate cashew from Take Home Chef as desserts! Gosh, I really like cooking!

PS: As of today I shall start blogging here (:

A little bit of this and that

2008-11-12T15:29:00.000+08:00

Good morning upper east siders!

Haha, I'm so addicted to this phrase right now (Yes it is technically after 12 am right now so it's like morning). The truly stinky part is that no forms of media are allowing me to watch that truly magical, truly sensational oh-so-pretty uh...... Gossip Girl. This stinks real bad because I have been procrastinating (what's new) since August.

A little bit of curiosity led to something very insane. You see, I was trying to do my tempo run on the treadmill today with a heart rate monitor. But my heart rate just refused to enter the targeted zone! I was trying all sorts of method-- increasing the incline, increasing the speed you name it. It was stubborn and grinned back at me with that cheeky 70, 74, 77 percent. Weird? Certainly. So I went online to check and found out that it was because of the physiological difference between indoor and outdoor running. Okay wait. Then comes the deeper pothole because I couldn't understand all the statistics that were used to explain why!!! So like everyone else I turned to good 'ol wikipedia and hey ho! They've got the answer! But, I still didn't understand a single thing! Let me declare first that I am not ill equipped to understand anything okay. Fine fine...... EXCEPT MATH. Because what they did was that they regurgitated everything pertaining to t-distribution, random variable, null hypothesis blah blah blah. You see, I wanted to know 1) why a t test existed and 2) what exactly is a t test. The problem here is that wikipedia was telling me what a t test was without watering down the information. I mean, unless you are a mathematician or any other higher being who eat, dream and breathe math or okay, let's be fair, a student who understands (and remembers) statistics, you will not understand what a t test is. Math, like philosophy I dare put it here, cannot be understood unless you remove all that jargon!!! So it's probably back to dear Mr Sartre's Why Write!

Wait wait, am I crazy?

No no.. take this as revision lah okay.

You see, if I write simply in the language that I, or any of those in my circle can understand, I am only writing for myself. Am I being narcissistic or elitist? The point is that no writing can exist without the reader. If not, as the title itself suggests, why write? The reader is the one that I am trying to project my conscious on, (Wait, what is conscious? Go google it!) so that I can take his pronunciation of 'I' as my own 'I'. For a moment I will borrow his imagination and transplant my own in there, to give him euphoria, thought, sadness, nostalgia etc. There is a sort of mutual consent between me the writer and you the writer because you chose to read my writing! Granted, I can still be narcissistic/elitist in my writing and the reader can be narcissistic as well. But it is irrelevant here because I am assuming that the reader understands what I am writing when he projects what he knows onto my writing. (Confused yet?) So then, if I take away that assumption and put in place here a reader who doesn't know anything about what I write, he wouldn't understand a single thing that I'm saying because he doesn't know my language.

I can go on and on and on but I shall leave it here. Haha. One simple t test and a whole lot of junk came out. I think if I go on exploring and countering every point made it will drive me nuts, not to mention poor eyeballs still stuck onto the screen. Are you guys reading?!?! And to reward you for your patience I shall let out my dirtiest secret-- I haven't started any revision yet! WOOHOO! The exams start next week and here I am too lazy to get my bum off the chair and my eyes on the screen. Trust me, I am online like forever and getting down to studying is soooo taxing. It's like, books are boring compared to graphics online. Maybe everyone should have their books on gutenberg.org or something so that we can save the environment!!!

Can't believe I said those bimbotic stuff. But yes, I do strongly believe in streamlining books online to save the trees.

Alrighty, there's more musings I would like to post here but it' time to say goodbye and tuck in. Haha. So old school... TUCK IN! By the way Facebook is extremely intrusive and the whole removal-of-status-thus-I-am-attached thing kind of reminds me of the cyborgs in all of us. Oh don't get me started about technology and progress. By the way if you are still wondering what's the whole status thing about which even included old uncle tong(!), let me put it cleanly that I am still single and uh, available. But I also want to say that I DON'T want a boyfriend because it's sooo troublesome. I'm not into this sort of stuff because I want to enjoy first! Also, if you are still still wondering, all those junk came out spontaneously. I am lazy, lazier than ever really. It's bad, but I like my life this way.

XOXO

Sheesh!

bye blogger!

2007-05-30T00:31:00.000+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIII!!

This is probably the last time I'm blogging here. Well, haven't been updating? Here's why.

invertedcomma.wordpress.com

New cyber home with new host. Haha. Blogger has too many problems and I had enough! Sounds ungrateful, but yeah. It can be such a b****. Haha.

But why wordpress? Cos many seems to be moving there, thus rendering it a common move. Oh well, that also means wordpress is more reliable! =D Anyway, it is PROVEN the extent to which Justina bloghops (or whatever you call that lah!). She sent me a moderation (why call moderation?!) even before I announced anything here. HAHA! I was intending to type this post after the Physics SPA, but oh well, someone got to know first. Haha. But yeah, thanks for telling me that the archive can be imported. I was still fretting over lost memories ya know! Hmm. I'll try to figure out how to import another day. Yay.

So there. BYE BLOGGER!

this is suicidal

2007-05-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

Don't be alarmed or fooled by the title. Two SPAs, one week and pentium one speed brain.

STRESS.

com lab

2007-05-25T09:56:00.000+08:00

I'm in the com lab now! Haha. Waiting for HH to print her stuff. Hmm. Attending Mr Mark's talk later. Someone's uber excited huh! OH wells..

Toodles.

nah, it's not goodbye =)

2007-05-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

The holidays are coming
the holidays are coming~~~

Even though I have to study, I'm still glad

Cos the holidays are coming!

Haha. Couldn't stop thinking about the hols. Really wish this week will whiz past with lightning speed and YEAH!!! HOLIDAYS!!!

Spent a very productive afternoon holed up in the library with a oh-so-beautiful Physics TYS. Rahh. *blush* Quite proud of myself eh! Haha. Anyway, finished the last question of the day before I packed my stuff hastily and whisked out of the library. Of course, it was none other than a SOCCER match between our very own soccer guys and the teachers!!! Haha. The guys totally owned the match man. A few teachers were damn zai lah! Mr Haniss, the two Mr Ngs, Mr Pereira and our very own RONALDO! Haha. Not bad showing even though some of them are way past their prime! Haha.

SH joined me after that. She was screaming like crazy over her heart attacks. LOL. Initially I wanted to post a photo of her under stressful conditions. Damn unglam lah! Blogger's going bonkers. Hmm. *hint* Time for a change?

Anyways, went home after that with a stopover at the bubble tea shop. Brought back memories of last year. Oh well...

I want to laugh at bear. =D Faster show up lah, you stupid bear. LOL!

Oh yes, I suddenly thought of Chem prac. Damn classic. A must share! BTan is a good liar man. He lied without batting an eyelid today. Pro. So yeah, he went up to the loudspeaker and adjusted the frequency (whatever that's called!) while QWong wasn't looking.

End result?

Her voice came out in echoes. HAHA! She suspected him of tampering with the loudspeaker no doubt, but he INSISTED on 'throwing away rubbish'. A sort of argument ensued and yeah, it was so hilarious that I forgot what I wanted to write for the Chem SPA.

Haha. Tomorrow's Thursday and I'm going to PING some PONG! Yay. Come down and support 0618 (Phoenix House) yeah? =) I pray that I'll get the doubles event. Haha. Can't play table tannis for nuts.

=D

success and failure

2007-05-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

The bar at the top seems to have gone. Maybe it was plucked off by cyber vandals. Haha. It's three more days to the holidays! Not something to be really happy about. Aye, SIAN.

No one ever said that failure was the end. It's not a finale with bright fireworks and stuff. And to define failure, I give up. Haha. This may sound rather corny, but life is like a sine curve. I ripped it off from some blog. You'll stay down, but not for long. But then again, you wouldn't stay on top for long too! Hmm. Murphy's Law!

So yeah. Don't tell me I've failed. I know I haven't. =D

There's so many things you can credit as success, but it seems that people around me are getting so determined to do well such that they forgot what success is. There will always be someone better and there will always be someone below you who's struggling to make ends meet. The question I'm interested is, how much do you take away when you leave this school? Your friends? The fun? Or simply, a sting of A's? If the main aim of the A levels is to ensure you a place in the university, then why are they still aspiring to TRY to be the best of the best? Seems kind of redundant to me. I mean, you leave this college, get a job, start a family, have children etc. But do you want your JC life to be remembered as a time where you fought so hard just to beat that somebody?

That's kind of sad isn't it.

They really don't know what's life. I can't say that I know, but I do know how to enjoy it. Haha.

Soccer match tomorrow. Beware, I'm so going to laugh at my teachers. HAHA! And yar, I want to give LCW a red card! Haha.

Chem SPA. I'm so going to own it.

JIAYOU.

goodbye my lover

2007-05-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

Today was the school's 28th College Day. Was aching all over despite having enough rest. It must be due to the terror(?) the night before!! Haha. COuldn't find a more suitable word to describe it. I was telling RY about Lit students being sex-oriented. LOL. Imagine a girl, a boy, a staircase and a blog. >.<

And oh, writing METAPHORICALLY.

Orgasmic? HAHAHA. Some people have fun doing it.

This week was full of test, test and more test. I wouldn't do well in any of them so there, mug harder next time. Sian.

Friday was reserved for soccer elections. Consulted Mr pi-zi before the meeting. I know I shouldn't compare, but subconsciously I found him more interactive than someone. He asked me not to think too much about The Three Musketeers. Well, I didn't say the Three Musketeers PLUS ONE. Oops. BUT! I know he's not and will probably never be, so yeah... The Threesome.

Sounds wrong by the way.

Anyway, watched the juniors play while HF, Cheryl and I sat at the grandstand. Tanny went home early. Rahh. It's tough trying hard to contain yourself when you could have run into the field to kick a ball or two if not for the monstrous A's. I felt really helpless at that point of time. Maybe we should just score straight A's to make the time sitting out of soccer worthwhile. ;)

And so, Jiayu, Madeline and Hwee Li form the core of the new exco. There are a lot of things for them to learn, definitely. I wish them all the best! =)

Today. Had Macs for breakfast, courtesy of dad. Haha. The ceremony was dead boring, unless you are a recipient of whatever award. Saw BEAR!!! WOAH!!! Super shuai!!!!

HAHAHA!

BEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going siao. Haha. But yar, bear and his tie. Cool!

Stayed around a little while longer cos SH was chatting with her shifu who was coincidentally my senior. The scary part was BOTH of them came out top in History. Woah, didn't know I have a way with historians. Haha. Anyway, I suddenly realised that the A's are not reflective of your ability to a very very large extent. For this senior who has the calibre to churn out forty marks for his GP essay week in and week out, a B3 just don't seem right. Argh. Exams.

Hung out with the hippest and coolest girls at AMK Hub after that. Haha. Yay, we are hip and cool! =X

Lunch was random food and an empty floor. The problem of wearing skirts is that old ah peks will start peeking into them. Yucks. That's why FBTs are important! Haha. Rahh. If only we can do that every week. =D

I think I'm having an eating disorder. I feel full most of the time yet I yearn and crave and salivate when I see junk food. Rahh.

Blogger is problematic. =(

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If only you were what I thought you were.
If only you could break that mask of yours.
If only you would care less about other stuff.
If only you were there.
If only we were back to the initial stage.
If only there was no such thing as ego.
If only you could understand.
If only there were no rules.
If only you are open to a thing called love.
If only you didn't do what you did.
If only I could give you one more chance.
If only you and I have chosen different routes.

Bye love.

vball finals

2007-05-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

The lecture notes are taking forever to be printed. Haha. Went for vball finals today. We cheered like there's no tomorrow. Wahaha. Eunice owned the whole grandstand can. Her superultra high pitched voice! My ear drums are splitting lah!! Haha. Classic. On the certain occasions the referee made some poor decisions and we were shouting refree kayu. Haha. This is soccer girls! Oh ya, I like the soccer cheer. Muahaha.. FIVE! Cheryl go and die...

And so, nanyang emrged as victors against ajc. Congrats.

It's kind of weird that after you've been disappointed with someone, you actually find the will to say 'Hi'. Hmm. But I guess I don't like to stay angry for long. Haha. In fact, I still like that tutor. Nobody is perfect and I don't expect anyone to be too. Rahh. Somehow he seems exceptionally cute today. Don't ask me why. =)

QW was being bi*chy today. Eew. Is it PMS or is does she have something against me? Actually I don't really care. It's just, after all, QW.

Rahh. Physics test tomorrow. I bet I will walk out of the LT if I know I'm going to fail. Haha. Really.

Toodles.

of teachers and by teachers..

2007-05-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

I realised the only place where I could spew all sorts of vulgarities out of my guts was the bathroom. Haha. Note how pissed I was. Not exactly pissed, but rather, annoyed and to a certain extent, disappointed.

4 A's. That was the school expectation. Yes, I know that at this point of time I should be concerned. But certainly not to the point of losing my sanity. You see, the school has expectations and well, certainly almost everything has a sort of expectation levelled at it.

Am I not expected, as a student, to complete me tutorials and take the initiative to ASK for consultations? Am I not already trying to help myself?

Look teachers, I know you guys have different priorities and stuff. But this single screwedupphysicstutor had to pangseh me once and leave me to wait for more than an hour today. Not that I really minded, but I thought that he could have the decency to tell me earlier that he has to attend the vball match. Definitely not on the day itself. WTH. And this guy didn't even apologise. I don't need apologies, that's not the main point, but PLEASE, telling me beforehand was the least you could do.

Moreover, I had to wait for more than an hour just so that he could play tennis,run around serangoon gardens and play rugby. Wah lao, if I'm your girlfriend I guess you would never have her waiting for so long. HAHA. The main point is, why are you still playing rugby when you know that I'm already up there waiting?

I admit, I really need help and I do not have the luxury of time for my own verylongwinded teacher. But you?

Pushing a student away based on frivolous grounds. WTH. Don't you know that it IS basic courtesy not to keep someone waiting for too long? Do you even do that to your own friends?

And the worst thing was his GAY friend had to come out of the staff room in an apparent attempt to ask him to hurry up. Ah yes, that GAY clique. Whatever.. that's not important... So I squeezed in a pathetic 'sorry' and for him to sum it up with 'teachers are indispensible'.

WTH?!?!?!?!?!

I had this friend who once pointed out the the differences between male and female. I guess the screwedupphysicstutor was definitely NOT gay, BUT! Respect and courtesy comes from both genders. Being a male or and female (or both) doesn't make you any different where courtesy is concerned.

Or is it simply because you are a teacher you don't have to practise basic courtesy? Screw that. How many times do you see teachers cutting queues in the canteen? They are busy, but WE ARE BUSY AS WELL. Since everyone is busy, then I think the first-come-first-serve basis would more than fufil its role here.

And back to Mr Screwed Up. I'm disappointed because you displayed a lack of courtesy. You showed that you are capable of being a good teacher, but never a GREAT one. A mediocre teacher tells, but a GREAT teacher inspires. I don't care how many lives you will eventually inspire, but you've lost my respect for you and I WILL not care to regard you more than an aquaintance.

Well, I guess to you such a loss will mean nothing. You don't give a damn? TOO BAD. Maybe teaching is not your calling and you don't realise it. HAH.

That's for you, Mr Screwed Up, recipient of the Worst Teacher Award 2007.

AMEN II

2007-05-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

Please ignore the previous post. Judging from what I've received so far, I'd better take down that post before more misunderstandings erupt.

Yes, Friday was a bad day and it ended off with something unpleasant. Ser didn't do anything wrong, I swear!! There are somethings which I've been keeping to myself for far too long and yes, I'm going to rectify it. In fact, I would like to apologise to peeps out there who have been the multiple pillars of support!

Really, I don't think I can survive without you people. Rahh.. feel like hugging you all now...

Also, I shouldn't have generalised by saying 'people'. Yupp.

Maybe this is a time to turn back to God and ask for directions. God has something to say, he has something for me to be a part in. I'm part of his plan....

but I don't feel ready. HOW??

This is a constant paradox. We call ourselves a child of God and yet we continue sinning. As it has been said, salt water and pure water do not come from the same source. Why is it that I call myself a Christian when I continue to use foul language so often? Why is it that people can be an ex-Catholic priest and yet become a gay? *cough* sounds familiar...

We know that the wages of sin is death, and the gift of God is eternal life. But why still sin?

Temptation. Lust, desires, jealousy... are they derived from love? Well, maybe. Because we love ourselves more than others and more than God. We want the best for ourselves and we quantify that love by the amount we possess. When we don't get what we want we devise all sorts of plans and go by unscrupulous means to achieve something. Is that what you call love thyself??

Vanity and betrayal both stem from love. Of course, there are other things that love can bring us. God gave us the ability to love so that we can bring glory to His name. But, love, a double-edged sword that is, prevents us from loving God and others.

SianzZz. But I love the threesome! Ser, RY and SH. =) Sometimes I regret not spending enough time with them. They are the ones who light up my life in school. They are the people who I'll miss most when I finally leave NY. They are what I call friends. People who have taught me love- the positive way! So yes, I really thank them for always being there. I will continue to lend you all my support even though we are from different streams. =DDD

Now I can truly say AMEN (:

my only sunshine?

2007-05-08T20:44:00.000+08:00

A quick update before I hit my books REAL hard. In fact, this week will be packed as I have to prepare for three tests next week, SPA exams and the impending doom of the mid-years which can very well seal my fate for my membership in the SDP.

Let be start off with some politics! Haha.

Mr Nicolas Sarkozy.

Yeah, the new up and running French President. I think France needs a real big change, both on the economic and social front and this man can certainly deliver the goods. He is, from what I see, a polarising figure indeed. The main problem I guess, is how he convinces the public to be more open to changes. The next one hundred days shall be crucial, as usual. I wish him all the best!!

That's all I have to say about this. Very brief, I know, but you can get more info on the web right! Haha. By the way, I do wish that our PM is half as good looking as him =X

Oh I just realised...

The SDP above doesn't mean Singapore Democratic Party -__-

It's just some scholars programme. Yeahyeah...Pris..a scholar?!?!

Hahaha. Oh well... almost got kicked out.. haha.

Got a little pissed off this morning. I've come to realised that some can really take their ego to a whole new level. For goodness sake, if you are really that brilliant, score full marks or something OR you might as well transfer to a more prestigious college. Pffft. You merely improved from a U to a D alright. There's an improvement. Good. But if you think that you ARE better than your classmates then I'm sorry you are so damn wrong.

Sometimes you donn't even know how moronic you sound and look when you pretend and (think) you understand the lecture damn well and ask questions with that oh-i'm-thinking-and-i'm-so-clever look. HOHOHO. By the way, I think you have horrible fashion sense. Irrelevant, but I think it's so true. You can't take physical trainings and complain at the slightest things. WTH. It's just an improvement, you can go higher, but you can also remain stagnant or go lower.

Oh well, let's wait and see.

I'm speaking from experience. You may think you know something damn well but at the end of the day you realise that it doesn't make much sense after all.

ROARRR!!!

See how pissed I was.

The soccerettes will be having our very last FAS match this year! Tomorrow shall mark the end of our (the J2s in particular) tournament days. It shall be emotional. I'm not really feeling it yet, but I know some of them are. I guess the feeling hasn't really sink in yet. Watching your juniors from the sidelines, knowing that you days are over and stuff. It won't feel great. Somehow I can predict but I don't feel it. Hmm. But I will, very soon in fact. Actually I don't know if I'll cope well without soccer. It's not the trainings that I'll miss, but the camaraderie and the 'dressing room jokes'. Peeps that have helped shaped part of me are the ones I'll miss most! At least we have DandD to look forward to at the end of the year. Emoemoemo...

But I shall focus on tomorrow first. I know nuts about IJC soccer so yeah...AND there's something worth rejoicing. I shall miss one hour of chem prac tomorrow!!!

=DDD

Yeahyeah, it may be my loss but HECK LAH. It's the last match and I want to live it to the fullest. Shall enjoy every moment with the soccerettes!

So till then...

i don't wanna miss a thing

2007-05-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

More tutorials to chiong. More revision to be done. Lecture notes to print.

Hang in there.

But not when you miss someone terribly.

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

cos I miss you baby,

and I don't wanna miss a thing

Even when I dream of you

the sweetest dream will never do

I still miss you baby

and I don't wanna miss a thing.

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing, Aerosmith

Aww.....

wobbleheads

2007-05-05T17:45:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time, in the faraway land of wowoboo, lived a close-knit family of wobbleheads.

They coexisted peacefully, were dutiful in nature and smiles never left their faces. In fact, they lived so happily and did not notice the impeding danger of the giants. Doomsday came and giants arrived at the doorstep of wowoboo. They were chained up and put into round containers, reduced to nothing but a commodity and their days became limited.

But giants are careless people. The wobbleheads bore the brunt of their carelessnesses.

Reminds me of war. Haha.

How to stitch the legs back???????

Wah piang!

soccer is for LIFE

2007-05-04T20:12:00.000+08:00

This week is so happening! I'm breathing soccer, smelling soccer, eating soccer, tasting soccer, dreaming about soccer, watching soccer, feeling soccer.

Wednesday

OCIP presentation was alright. They cut our video when we had one or two more slides left. Argh. Seeing those photos brought me back to good 'ol Chiang Rai. Everything there has a learning point. I came back twice as wise. Seeing the kids there reminds you of your childhood days. No homework, no assignment, no exams to worry. Every Akha's duty is to ensure happiness for his future generations. I won't forget that. We have lost sight of the very meaning of us being alive. Rahh. The video was super touching!!! Thanks, cultural ad hoc! Loves.

We had our third FAS match as of today. Here it goes:

NYJC vs HCI
1-0

How cool is that! We had lots of chances but didn't convert them. The ball that struck the goalpost seriously scared the sh*t out of me. I thought we were fated to draw against, or worse, lose to HCI should any tyco shots go in. But we were duly rewarded in the final minutes of the game when the referee awarded us a penalty. Ms Aud asked me to take it and OH BOY. I thought she must be out of her mind. Oh well, didn't feel that pressured to take the shot even though I knew that it could be the decisive goal. Yupps! So I just aimed at the bottom right hand side of the net and sidefooted the ball home! WHEE~~~ The feeling was great!!! ((: The last five minutes dragged on and on and on until the final whistle came! FINALLY!!!!!!

It was just a perfect day! =)

NYJC soccerettes, GOGOGO! =)

One more match for us to own. Yes, I'm brimming with confidence now. We can do it if we focus and put our hearts and minds into achieving our goal. =)

Thursday

Tried to study, was duper high after yesterday's win. Haha. SOT-ed after that. I like talking to Tong. He comes across as the smart yet the bochup guy next door, always fooling around but knows when to pull the strings and yes, he's more flexible than the most flexible rubber band you can find.

Friday (today)

Econs test. I was scribbling AS/AD all over the place. Haha. Tried to evaluate but oh well. The Best Is Yet To Be. Whee~

I guessed I finally realised the importance of practice. Veryalmostnearly passed the complex numbers test. Rahh. Hmm. At least got improvement k! ((: No more U's for Maths. Oh yar, me and NS were making up mottos for ourselves during the lesson-break-lesson-break-lesson time. And yes, the breaks are a draggy one hour each. Anyways, we came up with say no to U, US and USED. HAHA. Only ABC in the da house! Rahh.

So in order to keep our motto alive, we took a leap of faith and consulted Mr Low in the afternoon. I fee bad that I seem to be delaying his time. Haha. My thinking process is slow! Rahh. Liverpool won! Poor NS had to sit through that without making head or tail what we were saying. Wakaka. Tonight I shall cut out a picture of sulky Mourinho and paste it on my bedroom wall. Can laugh at him le.

By the way if you happen to flip through the Straits Times today you will realise that after all the Man U- AC Milan encounter lies a page dedicated to the local schools sports scene. And today, to my HORROR, beneath a picture of Justina and Maria, the caption read " Rough and Tumble: Hwa Chong Institution edged out Nanyang Junior College 1-0"

&*(_#(*&#*#^

Super pissed can!!!!!!!!

What made it worst was the winning number was awarded to the opposition. With due respect to HCI and their girls' soccer team, I really believe that we deserved the win. I just thought that such a mistake was ignorant/careless and someone should rectify it. I mean, couldn't the reporter be more careful in handling match results? Teams train hard and sweat it out for a year, only for their pride and moment of glory snatched away by the carelessness of reporters. This makes me wonder how they obtain their information in the first place. Through SMS? Email? Word-of-mouth ( though not likely)?

SianzZz. So maddening.

Ahahaha. The weekends are here!!! Yayness!

ps: An all-English final would be good. Even though I would love to see Liverpool lift the Champions League trophy, I really wished Man U could achieve the treble once more. The treble comes once every 78803927 years while winning the CL can be done every year.

Some won't agree. Haha. Oh wells, this is just an opinion.

~~Toddles~~. Toodles. Failing English soon. Haha.

doink

2007-05-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

Quick update!

Training was alright. I seem to have passed the initial phase of being able to kick high balls with the correct technique. Had trouble with goal kicks which means D-I-E.

Tomorrow we'll be facing hwachong. And I'll admit, for the first time, I'm scared. Afraid that we can't put those drills into practice. Afraid of the same mistakes that are always on repeat. Afraid that one miskick will put the ball into your own net.

Stress.

Who said being a last man was easy? HAHA. Anyway, I'm rather puzzled when Ms Aud said 'we had to convince pris to play in defence'

?!?!?!

She didn't convince me. I merely followed instructions! Haha.

I seem to have something to blog about, but I can't remember what it is. Hmm. By the way, I'm VERY awake now because I overslept this afternoon. A 20 mins nap became 3 hours of bliss, only to be woken by my sister's scream. And when I pulled away the sheets and stepped outside with my head still heavy, she requested that I look through her assignment on V FOR VENDETTA. Wah sai....

Basically I let off some umm...yar..ehh... before running back into my room. Haha. She seems to be having fun in poly. Going out in the evening to catch a movie and then the most enviable part is that she has no school tomorrow!! Plus she doesn't have lessons on Friday so basically it is TGIF for her.

Sianz. The horror shall be over very soon. I've repeated that so many times and I'm kind of numb already. Yay.

Queenie shall sing lullabies tomorrow. PE= picnic extravaganza. Reading Programme= ORION presentation.

There's only a 20 minute presentation to look forward to. That equates to missing 25 minutes of Chem prac. ~~Pathetic~~ but true cos the meeting time has been changed from 1pm to 1.15pm.

More updates soon.

I'm losing you.
You're losing me.
Who cares?
No one gives a damn.
I can't too.
Have FUN.

balloons

2007-04-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

I find myself torn between two persons. Trying to conceal one facade and put on a smile.

Badbadbad...

Anyway, the best way to wriggle out of a difficult situation is to SMILE sweetly at him/her and then direct your gaze at something else more distracting or prominent. Oh whatever. Pitiful people. Pathetic personality. For the very last time I shall say I DON'T CARE le.

On a happier note, I want balloons!!! Any colour will do! Just read the following and you will know why!

girl: can i have your balloons? my friend doesn't have one

man: err..i'm looking for balloons actually....

girl: why? for your girlfriend right???

man: *blush* nonono..my fiancee. 4 is not enough right? or is it?

girl: aiyah, give you my balloons lah...

man: i can't!

girl: i also don't have fiance..later i ask her not to marry you..

man: err..you are too nice lah..

girl: take leh

man: ermm..ok..thanks!

Don't get the wrong idea. Somehow I just want to have my room filled with balloons! =D The colours will definitely make my day. Oh well, like what we like to say...

wait long long.

But but but... the guy is super sweet can! HAHAHA. I envy his girlfriend. Rahh... Imagine you come home from work. You can sense your footsteps slowing down. The hysterical moments at the workplace, the incessant phone calls, the screaming of a hundred little brats, the times when you almost tore your voicebox apart just to put a point across.. and not forgetting the gossips that are rearing its ugly head in almost all aspects of your worklife. You come home feeling its toll, no matter how much you try to forget it, they nudge you in every inch your body. Your shoulders are starting to droop, every part of you wiegh twice as heavy. You are carrying bricks of burden, responsiblity and anxiety. But just for that moment you are stopped short in your tracks. A sight that captivates.

Are you there?

friends

2007-04-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

What a ~~slack~~ week.

First up, I would like to apologise to my ORION mates. Due to the clash in our meeting dates and the FAS competition, I can't help you guys out in the making of the video. Hopefully I'll be able to attend Wed assembly and enjoy the beautiful presentation that you guys will be giving. Thanks for being so understanding! (:

Match against SAJC and NY 3oth anniversary yesterday.

Thanks, councillors!

I swear I can say nothing more to you,
if you haven't realised it now.
I can't relate to anyone
and I don't intend to.
Don't blame me for being cynical.
Homosapians are selfish.
It's a survival of the fittest.
I don't care how anyone feels.

Pffft.

And I've come to realise that there's no such thing as best/true friends. You think they know you, but there's always a side of us that we don't show to others. Why should we waste time on people who don't even appreciate your efforts? This whole concept of true friends is crap. They are made famous by Disney. Pretty little princess and their FRIENDS. Everyone professes to have a friend, but in reality how many of us are actually afraid of them overshadowing us, be it in studies, sports or relationship? By your lips you call them buddy/brother/sister/dear/darling/FRIEND. When the situation calls for it you withdraw yourself and expect youself to do better than them. And you pretend that you don't know this, don't understand that. Results is not a perfect gauge of our capabilities, but it is the best method of determining our ability. So what if you score higher than your friend? So that you are SEEMINGLY smarter? Maybe that's why those who are prone to go 'WHAT AN EASY TOPIC/SUBJECT' are those who typically don't do well. Inverse relation huh. HAHA. I've stopped recognising such people as my friend. Not being snobbish or whatsoever. I just think that I'll be better of without these people trying to 'milk' me.

Heck lah heck lah.

Don't care liao.

Why am I constantly smiling against a backdrop hypocrisy and lies? Feels like an air puppet.

blasted into outer space...and back

2007-04-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

Nursing a runny nose and a sore throat. This week couldn't have been better. Hmm. But soccer mates!!! Don't worry! I'm alright already. Thanks for your concern. Really appreciated it. =)

Went home early today.

Ah pek/uncle/tiko: boy, please zip up your pants

*zip*

And he eyed his surroundings sheepishly.

HAHAHA.

I swear I didn't look at him intentionally. Was trying to reach Jinyu on the phone when I noticed this Jone. Oh well, you can't blame me for not failing to notice his anime styled hair, baggy shirt and designer bag. Ok, I'm not sure whether its of some designer brand but it does look good on him.

He caught my eye... and I swiftly turned around. Did I also mention that he's in the running for the position of house captain?

HAHA!

For the sake of this poor boy's embarrassing encounter, I shall not name the house he represents here.

Caught sight of HF after that. Orange bag followed right behind. I helped to relieve her stress from orange bag, do I? HAHA!

siansiansiansiansian.

To someone:

Not fond of you.

Send you to the zoo.

Stich you up with glue

and throw you into the poo!

We finished Hotel Rwanda. The library was freeezing. Seems like either the thermostat broke or the person setting the temperature was some thickskinned lizard. Wait, the librarian is known to speak too much for her own good, right? That explains why. HAH.

I wish that I have more interesting stuff to say rather than typing whatever that comes to my mind. A very incoherent and random post. I feel like dying. Life's seeping out of me like water flowing away from you. Drained, but can't do anything about it. Physics SPA. Hopefully it will not be another screwed up attempt. I really need to do well this time... to achieve equilibrium?! Or else I can kiss my A's butt. This is so shitty. So..so....

Zonked.

Maybe this will describe how I'm feeling now.

A little error on the scale. A deviant point that people will bypass. The line of best fit will never cross you. They say its 'so near yet so far'. I see it as so retarted and ending up more retarded. If you take a closer look at the world, you realise that many decisions are made by people with big heads filled with coconut water.

BLAH.

rahhh..

2007-04-21T16:00:00.003+08:00

Tired.Tired. Tired.

Went home early after training. Lunched at KFC (unhealthy choice!) because the juniors wanted to go there. Haha. HF said I looked pissed. LOL. Was just too shagged to even move my cheek muscles and bring on that classic grin. Heh. I'm starting to look at our school ruggers differently. They scream a whole lot of expletives. Poor bear has to withstand all the F you, F shit and whatever F you can think of. Rahh...

I like bear. He helps me to pick up balls. =)

Yesterday!! Had GP tutorial with Ms Aud. It was supposed to be helpful, except that many (me included) almost dozed off. HAHA. So weird lah! Your CCA having GP tutorial taught by your teacher in charge. Hmm. We wanted to play soccer after that at the usual netball court. Now I always thought that students of the school have a priority over outsiders and I gladly assumed that those occupants of the netball court were random uncles you see in the neighbourhood.....

UNTIL I STEPPED CLOSER.

There they were, clad in a house tee, grey and red shirt. The three musketeers of NYJC most nerdy but sporting clique comprising of Ballack Heng, Mr Pereira and Mr Low. And there was Jiayu, our soccer junior asking them to clear the court! HAHAHAHA.

Since we didn't succeed in our first of don't-know-how-many attempts, we starting playing CONTACT rugby with Tanny's slippers!! LOL!

The teachers didn't want to play with us =((

HAHA. Anyways, high-ness prevailed and we started our contact rugby again after soccer and of course!! Eagle catch small chicks! HF super violent sia. HAHAHA. We the jis kept running away. Oh yes, Huili wanted to play The Wolf. Eh... that was what I played when I was in kindergarden. LOL.

Rahh. In dire need of sleep amid the huge mountains of homework.

The Necessary Evil.

SianzZz.

still alive

2007-04-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder whether efforts are really worth it. Are the sweat and adrenaline rush going to motivate and elevate you to a higher position after all that shit. The tears are long forgotten, the anguish buried underground and we go HAHAHA all day long.

Tomorrow's going to be a bad day I think.

I think.

If thinking's not enough, then what is?

Damn it. Bouncing between a love and a hate. Sometimes their status switch, sometimes they acquire the same position and sometimes they just snuff the life outta me.

Damndamndamn.

Anyway, the teachers made funny little blunders on Monday.

cher: what is the relationship between Nikola (Tesla) and Edison?
us: GAYS

cher: ...and so for the current, POINT YOUR MIDDLE FINGER

O.O

cher: HOOOOWATT is ___
us: yeah, HOOOOWHYEE __

Fast forward to Wednesday. The match against TJC was good despite the errors made. We are a team. Succeed as one and fail as one. Who said we are not gonna make it? They have not seen the fight with their own eyes, the amount of time we kept the TJ players in check, the retaliation to their shoving and pulling. We ARE different, I dare say, than your girl next door. Soccerettes are a unique bunch. We drink mud (sounds like some cca's motto) , in large volumes for the love of the game and for the team. Who else dare take up this challenge? They speak, but do not experience. They scorn, but do not realise how myopic their views are. They think they've got the upper hand, but do not realise that at the end of the day, we emerge as victors. We will be stronger and a whole lot more wiser. So watch it. The field is our stage. There's a dream and we will not relinquish it. We can fail, but we will never ever, over our dead bodies, accept not trying.

Ahhahaha. This is getting out of hand. Thursday's prawn noodle! Lucky Mr Khoo let us off early ((: Yeah it sounds kinda loserish to go gaga over a bowl of noodles and a few measely chicken and prawn which will hardly feed a healthy adult. Sigh. NY ah NY, give us good food and clothe us nicely.... By the way, we are unofficially known as HCI (Serangoon).

HAHAHA.

Our beloved head prefers the prestige of HCI hung over our shoulders to the who-knows-what of *coughs* JC. Overall I still think it's not that bad after all lah. Heh.

Ah yes, and I gotta thank MP for the sharing today. Though it may seem mundane and repetitive, it brought back old feelings and I can definitely feel it touching my heart, slowly at first and then like a huge wave, totally engulfed by the waves of His promises.

LALALA~

I keep my fingers crossed. I go into Maths lectures with an inferiority. Complex..complex... This is the organised complexity of complex.

evaluation

2007-04-15T21:42:00.001+08:00

Spent 21 bucks today on seemingly frivolous stuff. HAHA. Haven't gone out alone in such a long time! Two hours in the mall and I'm 21 bucks poorer. See the might of our spending power! Well, I guess I'm considered a miser already. =P

I remember back in my npcc days where we used to do after event evaluation. There's an official name used in the police force, can't recall what it is though.

That's what I'm still trying to do, and what I have to do for the next few weeks and months, first FAS and then the monstrous A levels. Anyway, while doing my own shopping I noticed the surge in the number of couples around me. I see them in the bus, the MRT, bus stop, mall, streets... EVERYWHERE.

WTH.

No, I'm not turning into a green eyed monster or whatsoever. In fact, I was questioning my own ability to love someone beyond my current capacity. Seems like I have a problem making it known to someone that I really treasure them. Why? Because people change? Do we still love them as much? How much should we give?

Oh wells. Lazy to think.

SianzZz.

I

shall

sleep

early

tonight.

TOODLES!

weekly update

2007-04-14T13:21:00.000+08:00

Finally I found the time to blog. First up, friendly against AMKSS yesterday. We came from behind to score 2 against them. Goals from Madeline and Maria. Cool stuff. Haha. I agree that we have definitely come a long way. From last year's humiliating defeat by VJC on home ground to yesterday's goal. Whee~~ Felt that I could have done more. Hmm.

Coffeeshop-ed as usual. Left after that *** aunty started her rants. SIAO woman. Oh well, she got ditched. Call that stress lor. LOL.

Thursday. Had a sleeping spell. Studied in school before Ziwei and Shuen Lin (randomly!) joined me. Haha. I don't think I really understand Physics. Shux. Hate this feeling. But hey, I can quote you the formulas. Weird.

Wednesday. Felt completely worn out. Couldn't perform as well as I did on Monday. Oh man. More HtwoO please!!

Tuesday. SOT-ed. Class size was reduced for the first time. Hopefully that 'frightful' incident didn't do any harm. ((:

Oh yar. PW results were released on an ominous FRIDAY the 13th. NY kind of screwed up PW this year. Sucks. Look at 'junior' schools like MJC with fifty over percent of their students achieving an 'A'.

WTH.

Anyways, my group had a variation in our marks. YV and I got a B, WL and Kel a C, and Ken remains in the dark because he didn't hand up his Physics practical. HAHA. Sad case.

FAS starts next Wednesday!! JIAYOU!

ps: Hi teachers, if by any chance you landed on my little corner in this enormous cyberspace, I congratulate you for being no less voyeuristic than the coffeeshop uncle. Now that you actually find time reading our blogs, I suggest that you stop googling your own name and find better solutions to our learning needs instead. Period.

chilly like bare bones, exposed like never before

2007-04-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

Finally I gained enlightenment. Yet again, it came a tad too late. But better late than never right? Probably the things that make us happy are the little gestures, smiles, messages and laughter. When our mental consciousness flashes the 'happy' signal, we feel loved and appreciated. Of course, it can be a choice for one to feel as if he's on a high. I guess that is equivalent to coming up with an answer as to whether we are human after all. Why then, do we need a stimulus, something so unpredictable and unwise, even to dictate our mood? Because man do not live in a vacuum, enclosed in his own little bubble, dreaming of things that he wants to achieve. Nothing. Absolutely nothing, not even societal norms and expectations can propagate through this thin yet strong bubble. This is the ideal. An ideal so conveniently thrown into the backseat and left to become an invalid. Why then, are we allowing 'thoughts' to pierce through our bubble, ripping apart the enclosure and invade the central area of thought, feelings and dreams?

The stimulus and the 'thought', intangible yet powerful. They possess the capability to wear you down, but pull you up like a child on a swing. Forces of nature? Maybe. Nothing's definite. I wonder if people like Karl Marx ever ask themselves the implications and consequences of the ideology they so fevertly promote. Ah, the paradox of philosophy. Everything has an anti-thesis, no? But do they ultimately reconcile and synthesize into something, be it good, bad or controversial? Why are we then, so eager to promote what we think? If it is 'good', it provides us with an antidote to counter the axis of evil. What if it's 'bad'? Implications? How sure are we when we try to convince others when such questions prevail. They are banging so loudly at the back of your mind. Do we choose to ignore it? Or are we simply unaware of it? I will choose to think of those who are unaware as people who are fast losing their soul. They don't question, they don't think of the alternatives to their so-called solution.. they are not in contact with their soul, feeling it by the second. It's heartbeat, the reverberation. Nothing.

I've been crippled by this pressing question ever since secondary school. People think that I'm just weird, sensitive even, to think of this. A pressing question indeed. But no solution has been found. As complex and difficult as finding the pill of longevity. It's as though we are trying to make a tumbling kelly fall, but each time it rebounces and regains lost ground. It's smiling face seems to mock at our folly, it must be thinking how dumb the human race is.

An external force that is so powerful. It can crush us, it is many times heavier than the biggest boulder you can ever find. Should we even try to find an antidote to crack open this boulder? A hairline crack will enlighten us so much more than all the philosophers past and present combined. What more, should we expect should this huge stone explode? All magnificence, glory and honour unveiled right before our eyes. Are we even ready for it? A war lecture I had today spells it our loud and clear. Judgments, image and animosity, a perfect recipe for war. When will mankind ever learn? The very day/hour/minute/second before an enormous star strikes us and plunge the world into darkness where you can hear nothing but the loud wails of mourning?

And so for now, let this external reagent continue to burst the bubbles of men, women and children alike. I'm sure we will still gain from it, albeit slowly and painfully.

yesteday once more

2007-04-06T14:41:00.000+08:00

Words, how easy they make you fall in one instant and lift you up again. People you realise that you don't know that well after all are capable of pushing the motivating button for you. Sometimes I wonder how much we really know those around us. There will be a period during a friendship when you start thinking whether you really understand him/her after all. The reverse is true. Do you know me too? The difference in tastes and preferences, moral standards, just to name a few. They are under the umbrella of personality. We can claim to love each other, send encouraging SMSes, but the ultimate question is whether these only touches the surface of a social bond, a feeling that arises because of 'chemistry'. I'm confused. If everything that binds people together are out of a special bond created and because you share a mutual consenses, then why do doubts still linger on so heavily. You smell it in the breath of someone when he/she speaks, you hear it from the all-so-powerful words and maybe, taste it when thoughts are translated into feelings which manifests itself through our actions and then transfered into feelings again.

Anyways, today's Good Friday (:

Mr Mao's church stood modestly along a drive. My first impression -a rather simple church in the neighbourhood kind. Had fun there, the food was fantabulous!! Let me see, eclairs with whipped cream that melts in your mouth (YUMMY!!!), mini pizzas, fruit tarts, not forgetting the usual spread of beehoon, chicken wings, prawn fritters etc. Must really thank him for the good food and great company! (:

I led the ice-breaker cum games session later. It was nerve-wrecking but fun nonetheless. Felt that I could have done better. Hmm.

Praise and worship by Joel. Yoyo, rock on man... HAHAHA.

Followed by sermon by none other than Mr Mao himself.

And then it was chit-chat session! RY and Ser cannot stop telling Angela about a very handsome someone hor.. HAHA. But I laughed the hardest at the video part. The screams were defeaning sia.. I bet they could shatter window panes if the frequency had been one or two hertz higher. LOL.

Tai Yuan is my man. HAHA. This SH put our names in some Chinese essay of hers. I think tai yuan is oriental and huan ning is HUH? Since they sounded nice (according to her), we appeared as lovers in ancient China and I mourned for his death. And she got penalised for not writing HOW he died -_-
-

YOYOYO. Da bear's in da house. Gif him the kick ya?
B to da E to da AR.
He's da man!
'Nuff said.

LOL!

-

I'm feeling better (:

Bad day- part 2

2007-04-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

Aggrieved. It is a monster I must overcome. I will find ways and means to go round him and emerge victorious.

Hmm.

Scandal-ed. Thanks to people who nearly blew the cover off. HAHA. A very kaypoh guy who knows why I think it's a bliss to call for a bear everytime. Oh gosh. It happened the second time this week. SCANDALS!!! No, this time I'm innocent-- to a certain extent. Believe me, you teachers out there reading this blog. Hah.

Anyways, thanks Eunice, for taking care of me after that lousy run. (: It is difficult, I admit, to take a test after a rather emotional period. Of course, it affected my timing but I couldn't be bothered to take the test a second time. Got it over and done with though today was clattered with very unpleasant conditions.

Classmates. Very encouraging people indeed. Sigh.

Realised that FAS is two weeks away. Man, with that shitty stamina I'll huff and puff my way through. HAHA. Jiayou people!!

Tomorrow's Maundy Thursday! Going down to Mr Mao's church to organise some games. Hopefully it'll turn out fine.

Tired. Toodles.

101 101 101 Dalmations!

2007-04-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

Yay! My 101 post! -_-

I don't know why I'm feeling this way. It seems like nothing I do will seem good enough. Now that T may stop welcoming us that openly, I can only hope for the best outcome. Maths tutorial is getting demoralising and I'm left to wonder what happened.

This mugger in my class makes me feel like tearing my hair out. Now that you got your desired grades, well, so? I really regret voluteering to mark attendance for you. I thought that would help to relieve SOME of your burden. You have come up with way too many excuses and I don't care now. I don't care if the attendance is not marked, don't care if you get whacked because of it, I don't care. I don't care since your life centers around getting good grades I don't care since you are always coming to class, spreading germs and bacteria to the rest of us. Stay at home when you are sick, get it?!

And I really don't care (or rather, don't bother) to collect any forms that we are supposed to hand up. I refuse to. When you go around pretending that you are the oh-so-nice person collecting those forms and leave me wondering why no one is handing it up. I will not attend any common lunch break activities when you have 'something' on. I will not budge from this stance. I promise that I will not tolerate those tantrums, those childish antics that you often show, those i-ask-you-only-because-you-are-good questions.

I do not mind doing things that are to be done, but definitely not when you always turn up sick but get all the credit in the end.

I simply can't and will not do all these now and in the future.

Thus, I can safely summarise how to make a lousy CT rep but still get away with it.

1) Mug till you drop.

Since you are ill, the asst. CT rep will have no choice but to take over your role. Since you get the best of both worlds, why not?

2) Cram and squeeze every appointment/consultation on Thursday.

Asst CT rep, you know where to head to during common lunch break.

3) Ask the asst CT rep to collect consent forms.....

but collect the forms before he/she does. She will start thinking how irresponsible her classmates are and tell your clique about the problem. They will think that she is selfish since you have already done the job and she shouldn't be complaining.

4) Pull a long face/ throw tantrums.

Just show that you have the final say. Nobody will even dare to ruffle your feathers.

5) Cultivate a low threshold of pain and patience within you.

Statistics will again show that others will back off.

6) Get a few decent grades and stay on the good side of your teachers.

The school will reward you more handsomely since you are elected as the representative of the class. Whatever you are doing beneath the surface will remain underground, unless someone blows the whistle. Why, just be more humane for the sake of your reputation for a few days and volunteer to help your asst CT rep.

Yes, I'm not feeling that great now. With my ego bruised from getting the last of my papers back today and the yucky feeling of facing this mugger everyday sickens me. I'm sickened to the point that I want to grab her by the neck and jolt her out of this anti-social attitude. I want to concentrate solely on soccer, studies and religion. That's all.

On a brighter note, had fun during GP today. Learnt the different hand signals. Hmm. You, GAY and with small P. HAHAHA. Courtesy of Bonn.

The PE teachers are weird. They turned to look at my expressionless face and then sniggered. Hmm.

Bye.

riddles

2007-04-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

" Son why you got to sing that tune

Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon

Let an angel swing and make you swoon

Then you will see... You will see"

-The Riddle (You and I), Five For Fighting

sports carnival

2007-03-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

Post edit: I realised only 13 turned up. Hopefully Mr Khoo and Mrs Koh will not come after me with a parang.

NY sports carnival. 17 out of 23 turned up. Haha, this is truly an i-don't-care class.

We were supposedly first in the dragonboat, having beaten Dragon house who has way more guys who pass their napfa. HAHA. But the drummer FELL OFF the boat!! We stopped paddling and relinquished that chance to score some (rather pathetic actually) points for phoenix house in a bid to save that girl. LOL. Quite scary. I saw her cap floating but she's nowhere to be seen lah! Lucky Eug held on to her. Phew.

I've got tan lines on my arm and feet. Shux. Ugly sia.

Did some crazy stuff,

erm, yes, ZW made me do this. A failed attempt to be sexayy.

Couldn't leave earlier firstly because I had to mark attendance and secondly, meet gang after the event. Most of the guys went home early. No comments.

Tampines mall-ed. Ate at Han's, SH was still pretty upset. I think that was really a misunderstanding. Anyways, bathed at her house and tried to complete some work. Totally knocked out in the mrt later. Hoo, power nap! Rushed all the way to the national library, and I saw my old pal, Deepti!!!

Finished what we have to do at around seven thirty and RY went poem crazy lah. HAHA. I told her about the man-hand-blood and gore-score-all-reservoir poem. HAHAHA!

Oh yes, a poem for bear!

A big brown bear,

his face is square.

I see him everywhere,

though I don't seem to care.

He's a big brown bear

He just has the flair

to make me lose my hair

He's a millionaire

He's a big brown bear!

A little crappy but who cares. Bear will like it. Woots!

And before I forgot, I dreamt of bear yesterday night. It was a nightmare. Sorry bear. I'm sad to hear that you gonna have a nightmare too. LOL!

That's all. Bye.

crocs are muggers

2007-03-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

Took this during the crocodile farm trip.

I am a crocodile since I'm turning into a full-time mugger soon.

HAHAHA.

va va vrooom.. I need it soon

2007-03-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

This piece of news couldn't have been more timely. Tuition has been changed to TUESDAY!!! That leaves me free on Monday and thus I can attend training!!!! WOOHOO!!

Some ang moh from the UK gave us a lecture during Physics today. As he went on and on about composite materials, their functions and applications, I was fighting the fight of my life (with my eyelids.) Keep it open.. open.. shux....OPEN!! It must have created a rhythm, as if it is in synch with every word and action the speaker makes. Now I would have gladly let my mind wonder seeing that three quarter of the LT was nodding off too. But words of wisdom will always be words of wisdom. The mere recollection of P would jolt me up and make me sit up straight, nevermind this speaker from Never Never Land was giving us information which we could not make head or tail whatever he was saying. P is powerful in a way, though I will never admit outright.

It is difficult to start your engine after a four days break. HAHA. Nah, I just think I need a life. Went to the band room to look for SL, RY and Ser and shockwaves started to make me tremble before I burst out laughing.

She's the man! SL cut her hair...Hey, I may have a crush on you, you know?

HAHAHA.

RY was equally funny lah! She wrote Mr PIYO on her script. Some random teacher actually corrected that mistake. LOL!

Thanks to my new found hearthrob, I relearnt the guitar while waiting for the two cnny girls who were, by the way, squealing in delight at the sight of *coughs* their idol! SL was no doubt, in my opinion, the latest sensation to emerge from NY. HAHA. What a pro! She came up with two progressive chords that can be used in almost every song. Woah.. Anyways, I learned how to play tian shi!

Went to SOT after that. I wasn't upset anymore lah. Heh. TY popped her head into the male toilet before this stranger came up from behind looking all perplexed. And Jo just cannot resist banging her head on the glass door everytime. HAHA.

Shux. I have not touched my tutorials. Should do anot? Since I think they are crap and they probably hate me as well. Bah.

Sometimes results doesn't really matter when you gain something more important than that. It rewards you more handsomely for we know that we live for Him alone.

Double shux. I realised I can't come up with games for nuts. I'll find a way, hopefully. =X

Bye.

Come back,

2007-03-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

...BIG BEAR.

HAHAHA.

It feels weird when you're stuck at home all day. I need a movie!! Home is seriously empty in terms of entertainment. Tried all sorts of remedy to cure my craving to see the outside world, including *coughs* tutorials.

Shux. I need a life.

To think that I went to the gym only on Fri =(

Schools starting tomorrow. Still feeling rather unhappy with 06-- (the class I'm having tuition with). Have to miss training because of the make up lesson. Screw their excuses lah. Competition is round the corner and I really want to train hard with the girls, do well in FAS and all. Every training is a rehersal for the big stage. Just because you have tests doesn't mean you can cancel tuition as and when you FEEL like it. I have tests too. What's more, you should have studied beforehand. Oh well, that's one reason why you shouldn't sleep during lectures and tutorials. Screw you if you say that Arts involves more memorising work than Science. True, our content is way less than you, but our work involve more practise. Practise, practise, practise... Does that take up a lot of time? That's a no brainer question. And please don't tell me that Arts is subjective. WTH. Take subjects like Physics, Chemistry, Math or Bio then. If you think it is easy to 'score', why aren't you in the Science course? Because ___??

Excuses.

Shux. I'm really pissed. Rahh... By the way, I do not despise the arts. In fact, I like the open-endedness of it. It's just that some people are really getting on my nerves when they come up with silly excuses and rob away precious time.

Anyways, it's a half-day tomorrow!! We reap what our seniors have sown. Muahaha. Heard that NY is 7th in the rankings, beating schools like AJ and SA. True? But the pressure's on us this year. HAHAHA.

Die liao lah.. A levels leh.. mai siao siao!!

I really need a life.

Bye.

big brown bear

2007-03-24T03:05:00.000+08:00

You really remind me
of a bright faced angel.
You were really a gift,
so benevolently given.
I couldn't have asked for more;
I can't quantify
the amount of joy you've brought.
The smile generously drawn,
you don't know
how contagious your laughter was
Every simple word and action,
more like a temptation.
I didn't believe in fate,
but it made us collide.
A miracle, I won't try to hide.
Always a new sensation,
derive a realisation.
I still want to run to you
and play with your paws (haha)
To watch you kick those balls;
Can I see you score?

I miss you, the BIG BROWN BEAR =(

Come home soon.

post-blocks

2007-03-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

Sis had been stood up far too many times by me. So, I asked her out to atone for my sins yesterday. HAHAHA.

The History Boys! Caught it at Vivo. Don't watch this movie unless you are British man. HAHA. Lots of eyecandies available. Irwin (played by Stephen Campbell Moore) is a classic shuai ge with both brains and character. Melts~~

HAHAHA. Anyway, you can compare their tutorials with us. We are at the extreme poles. The students ask a whole lot of questions, set the topic which they will learn for the day whereas everything will be done by the teacher for us. Cool. Next time I'll start bombarding my teachers with questions. Oh well, no wonder Mr L used to flare up because we were TOO QUIET.

Gym-ed. I'm growing muscles. Wahaha.

Shuai right?

HAHA. Damn random. Meeting HF tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to catch more movies! :D

3.27

2007-03-22T03:27:00.000+08:00

.... in the morning and here I am blogging.

I'm borrrred till the point that I'm afraid that I'll lose my sanity soon. Did some serious blog- hopping just now. Call me a voyeur, but it is interesting to see what is going on in your peers' life. I guess the most common title today (or rather, yesterday)-- BLOCK TEST IS OVER. Whatever.

Physics paper wasn't as tough as I thought. For the first time in my one and a quarter stay in ny I actually managed to finish a Physics paper. Hopefully I'll be able to meet my target, especially with someone's VERY MOTIVATING words this morning. HAH.

S was pretty upset with the changes that are due to materialise next week. I've been there, done that. Yes, it is painful to see someone leave, to know that they will slowly fade into the background. Mr G. Tay was right, although he certainly sounded more like he was joking. Very soon, we'll step into the next phase of our lives. But I think the most important thing is what we take away from our two years here. Anyways, heard an even more (potentially) devastating news.

HE is leaving.

WTH?!?!

When I heaved a sigh of relief the moment I caught sight of that all-too-familiar personality, strutting past me with its confidence brimming at the beginning of this year? So all of this has been a conspiracy- lies so thickly weaved together such that not even the most sophisticated device can unravel them.

How coolly he sounded as he raved on and on about the magazines in the library.

As the first ray of sunlight falls, you know that he is gone. You carry out your chores and he will not be there to share with you the Crap of The Day. The silence is deafening and distraction is the key to keep your mind off this departure. Soon numbness engulfs you and you no longer feel that something is missing. But hollowness rings when I see his other half (not that I'm particularly fond of ***). Your face that accompanies her, the past phenomenon that occured which is still clearly etched in my memory. This feeling sucks. It sucks for I know that relationships can be superficial. Some may not seem to feel the pinch, they are 'alright' with it. Are they, really?

Everything seems to be floating now and my head feels ten times heavier. Seems like my body is crying out painfully for me to stop all this and head straight under the blanket.

now, for the moment,
she was back in those forgotten,
yet infrequent times
when fear or misery
induced a willing surrender
and surrender brought comfort

Bye.

blockyblock..blockhead!!!

2007-03-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

One more day..

just one more day..

sixteen more hours of tension....

and I'll be free from the clutches of blocks.

HAHA. The papers weren't as difficult as I thought. Thank God! ((:

We exchanged our holidays for a string of alphabets.
We relied on caffeine to see us through those blurry days.
We counted on friends for the tears, smiles and laughters.

In the end, I really hope this is all worth it. But I guess the best part of being in NY is knowing great people, nevermind that the canteen is a great place for chit-chats but full of lousy food (compared to the food in rss!!). Sitting at the roundtables, speaking to people that pass by, be it a really knowledgeable tutor or a simple hi-bye friend. Knowing that you have a dedicated principal... :D and yes, having a lovable bunch of peers running around the field with you.

I'm starting to like NY. HAHAHA.

Watching the teachers play tennis after the Econs paper made me think of Physics. Oh well, Physics paper tomorrow, what else? I was joking with K about the synaptic questions. HAHAHA. Imagine Gravitation and Dynamics together. Ooooo.. I have a brilliant example! Physics department.. hear me out!! =P

but first.. I need to hit the BLOCKS for the last time...

man on a bench

2007-03-18T02:22:00.000+08:00

Look and the time now and I think of tomorrow's service. Heck the eyebags and rely on caffeine. That's my life so far, and if this goes on I'll collapse soon. Revision has been BORING, nothing much except that I manage to consult Mr Khoo on Fri to clear my doubts.

I'm breathing in octane. I think I'm going schizophrenic soon. Yay. Man on a bench. I almost suffered a meltdown.

Why, the artist rolled out a spanking new sheet of canvas. He paints a vibrant atmosphere, but in the background he added a drop of loneliness. HE cuts a lone silhoutte, so meek and untouched. Every smile and crease evidently seen. The brush crosses over it and there, the usual colours and hues.

I <3 benzene and methylbenzene. Repeat after me. Love it or hate it. This is Chem and I think it rocks...

not.

Try psycho-ing yourself. Maybe it works.

I'm not making much sense. Toodles.

maiden voyage

2007-03-14T17:05:00.000+08:00

Got a tan this morning. Hmm. Ang mohs form the minority, yet when you get to the poolside, suddenly they seem like the main race in Singapore. Armed with the need to make things clear, I decided to head down to the pool, not so much with the urge to swim, but to get a much-needed tan. HAHA. Brought my Chem notes along (see how pathetic life can get) and chose a prime spot in full view of the ang mohs, the 2 Chinese guy and girl in the water, a Chinese girl with a book in hand and of course, the sun.

One look and things become crystal clear. The Chinese prefer to lie in the shade while the ang mohs basked away in the sun. I guess my presence caused a little stir. They must be puzzled at the sight of this Chinese girl reading under the merciless sun.

Funny. We have summer all year round but yet we shun away from the sun like a plague whereas the ang mohs love it to bits. When noon came, the Chinese, rather predictably, scrambled for shelter. So then, it's me vs the ang mohs. I was reluctant to return home until I finish that set of lecture notes. And the competition continues...

Hoohoo! I was the last one standing.

The reasons for this phenomenon are obvious enough. I think they are one-sided and well... very Singaporean.

So there you go. My maiden voyage into the colony of ang mohs.

Studies. Things are going pretty well. Quite unlike the previous outburst, I think Math is interesting in its own way. It provides another dimension where creativity meets knowledge.
Oh, and I guess I lack the creativity part. That explains the huge imbalance which is why I'm not able to solve problems that seem easy enough.

Physics. It's going to be a subject that I may flunk. My concepts are not clear and whatever. Maybe Mr Khoo can help this Fri. I don't know, superposition itself has lots of basics to cover.

Chem. Understanding is no problem. I just need a super brain this time round. Every lecture notes has tons of information enough to tie you down for 2 hours at least.

Econs. Heck, have not started. GP. General knowledge will pull you through (hopefully).

I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope that the papers will be easy on everyone.

Bye.

booboo math

2007-03-13T15:04:00.000+08:00

Math is giving me headaches. It was a moment of madness when I chose Math in lieu some other subjects which I have far more interest in.

I'm living to regret it.

Boo Math. It sucks. Complex numbers is bullshit. Maclaurin's is McDonald's cousin.

Damn.

Totally random. Ignore me.

Toodles.

NTU seminar

2007-03-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

Was at NTU to attend a seminar on Economics and Public Policy (JC students) yesterday. It raised a few interesting points, some thought provoking (an economic framework for happiness) and some, a fresh insight (health economics) into Singapore's society. Learnt new concepts, refreshed my memory and cleared a misunderstanding. Couldn't have spent a Saturday morning more fruitfully (:

It's a pity I didn't take H2 Economics or else I could have appreciate the talk more. Saw my ex-classmates, Faris and Nadiah as well as this guy who seems like my ex-primary schoolmate! I think his name is Linus. Hmm.

Anyway, managed to tour NTU during the lunch break and after the seminar. The campus is HUGE. I'm having second thoughts about applying to NUS. HAHAHA. Oh well, shall think about that again when the time arrives. Neetha has razor-sharp vision! She spotted corner of a bookshop where books are sold at $2 each. We went there a little too late. I grabbed a book thinking the auntie will chase us out soon. She was already pulling down the shutters when we were in there. HAHA. Everything was rushed but hey, I think I got some learning to be done with this new book. Muhaha.

I have a question although the answer seems obvious enough. DO I LOOK LIKE AN INDONESIAN?? Two indo guys came up to me twice. The friendlier guy's name is Ian! HAHA. He couldn't believe his ears when I told him I'm Chinese. He thought I was at least a partial Indonesian. -.- What was even more surprising was that my name is also an Indonesian name. HAHA. Ok, we agreed that he's my long lost brother.

Then came this uber cute Lychee Martini!! Yeah, the ice cream tasted sweeter than usual. HAHAHA.

Off to mug for the block tests.

Bother!

the love that dares not speak its name

the giver and his listeners

2007-03-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

Screw that math test. Eh, give me time, I'll make it.

Revelation of a non home economics student: burnt pancake. Yes, lunch. My mum came home horrified. HAHAHA.

Anyway, some really have a low threshold of pain. Not that I would belittle them, but can't they just show more character? Yes, you have a problem. We may not emphatise with you, but we can definitely sympathise with you. Why withdraw yourself from everything? By throwing your work to someone, doesn't that make you more loserish? Studying may be the cause of you misery (actually, it is the misery of every student, no?), but that doesn't qualify you to skip your cca and other college events. If others are able to make the effort I don't see why you can't. Is getting straight A's a topmost piority? Oh well, to a certain extent, yes. BUT we have to know our limitations and where our strength lies. No point in cramming pieces of information into your brain at a speed of 20000000 bytes per second. You will eventually suffer a burn out. Trust me. To be cooped up at home all day with your head buried in your books, you are missing out on the beautiful world around you. The world revolves, seconds tick by, transformations take place and where are you to witness them? Isn't that something that you should worry about instead?

That's why I have eventually settled with just a slightly above average grade. Just do well and try. I won't accept myself not trying, but I can accept failure. There is nothing wrong in scoring B's and C's. You settle for the smaller share of the rewards, but remember that there are those who might not even sample the sweet taste of success at all. You may mug hard, but get a life as well. As the saying goes- all work and no play makes jack a dull boy. There is simply no point in living in that cocoon and emerging later on only to find that the the world has changed beyond recognition. That's not how we should live our life, we should enjoy life as it is.

So much for what I've observed.

Btw, those below are just some of my recollections after talking to P.

Sitting there requires the interaction of words which is transformed into information and thoughts that we take in and digest. Due to certain circumstances, we end up distracted or simply shut down our five senses. It seems easy for someone to stand up and take centrestage. It is not easy, really. How much pain and sweat has been put into moulding these pieces of information such that they sit well in our brains? Being a listener is not an easy job. I admit, it is equally difficult. We are doing different forms of work, but we are sharing that same piece of information. Sometimes the listener gets greedy, and he tries to grab a larger portion of the meat. It doesn't matter. The giver will provide. And have we ever thought of the source which provides us with that meat? A good deliverer will fight tooth and nail to obtain your portion of the meat. More often than not, the listener grabs it from the giver's hands and run off, chewing on the meat hungrily while he thinks of how smart he had been.

The good giver doesn't complain, he just give. That is his job, he tells himself. Even when the listener gives him a black eye, he says nevermind. He's hurt inside, but he will carry on with his job. There is no way he will let the listener's future slip from his fingers. So what if the listener also choose to bite off his fingers? Pain is not in his dictionary.

....Until one day when the giver finally exploded, the listeners cowered in fear, but only temporarily. They hated him, they thought why he couldn't be more understanding. They wished he was never their giver and provider. They compared him with other givers and found them sweeter. The fact that the meat tastes equally bitter,if not, even worse, doesn't bother them one bit.

And there goes the one giver whom everyone loves to mock at. He spirals into anonymity. Maybe one day some will come to terms with what they have done but I doubt many would anyway. At least for now, he stays put and is still at the beck and call of his listeners. But this giver may not stay for long, only he knows and he intends to keep mum about it.

So long giver. I salute your courage and magnanimity.

a whole new brand new you

2007-03-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

There is a recent trend of SEX educational talks in school. And they always go around one topic- abstinence. I guess that explains why few would choose to watch the performance. Many, me included, were reading the college annual and well...giving comments. HAHA. Cat was soooooo cute lar!! Those bambi eyes...

Oh gosh!!

There's a lot I wanted to say after talking to P. At least, when I want to fall asleep in class, I will think twice. Hmm.

No mood to study for physics test. Like wth?? Why are they throwing us test after test on the last week of term 1?

Yes, I'll be going for dinner and dance. $50 deposit to be paid tomorrow. It's themed salsa fever. According to ms aud, salsa is the 'in' thing now. Hey, I learnt salsa during pe. Wanna be
my dance partner?

___ you are my man

I wanna hold your hand

(the following lyrics have been censored due to its explicit content)

LOL. We were bored.

-

I actually didn't think that you were doing the wrong thing. Sometimes one has to become the bad guy, but he is the one who makes the difference. It is more difficult to pull a stubborn cow along than to be the cow itself.

Bravo!

-

Sounds and waves
you see equations
baby they're your slave
and they will whip you
if you misbehave
how contradicting
but it's a rave!

I really love you, waves.

-

Missed Monday's training because tuition was cancelled at the very last minute. Pfffft. Having tests is definitely not a very good excuse. Anyway, sat at the grandstand, stared at the gals who were being trained by ms aud and learnt quite a bit. Funny. There are some things that you don't see while you are on the field. BTW mr low made my alarm bells ring when he asked why I didn't keep my boots in my locker. We will become nyjc smellyrats if the whole team is to store their boots in let's say..... the pe store? HAHAHA. He's cute lah (a confession, DON'T LAUGH), and I shouldn't be laughing at him.

The rugby coach probably has an overdose of testosterone. He thinks that guys shouldn't be associated with anything that's pink. Goodness. MCPs.

So, I'll be doing 10 farg legs tomorrow. ((:

opportunity

2007-03-04T17:12:00.000+08:00

So glad I chose to go. Many times the weakness takes over and consumes me, and possibly our relationship.

I told Him,
let today be the turning point
no more backsliding
no more reliance on my own strength
just turn to Him
He is our provider
our deliverer
our healer
what more can I ask for?

Thank you for your graciousness
Thank you for the kindness shown
Thank you for your patience

And when opportunity comes knocking, let's be the good Samaritan! (:

Block test in 2 weeks time. WOOHOO. Gotta get a B for my H2 subjects or else...

there goes NSP membership. Not that I mind, but it doesn't feel nice to be kicked out of a programme.

No pain, no gain.

There you go. I'm off to mugggggggg...

on repeat

2007-03-03T01:04:00.000+08:00

Secretive, silence, neagativity, love, like, hate, abhor, rage, human nature, enthusiastic, sorrows, downcast, motivational, lazy, lecture, reprimand, scold, scream, laugh, bellow, selfish, silly...

It's all a guessing game, or is it? I don't know. It seems as though trust has rightfully flew out of the window. I can just say 'hey, pick up the pieces, sew it back and go.'

Those lines,
obvious to the eye
doesn't shine,
just *SIGH*

Apparently the crater is large enough to suck us in. Damn. I can't say a thing. The rule of thumb is to ASK, not putting the bricks into the haversack. It gets heavier along the way, maybe the threads will come off, the cloth will rip, maybe your shoulders will dislocate and give way, or an enemy will come and mutilate you, the eagles will swoop down and take it away, maybe.....

Much stressed upon values. Yeah, I should have known. If respect isn't the word, I just can't describe it any better. Time. Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings. No, time is not gonna bring back the novelty, it has faded to eternity. But what will tomorrow bring? More thrills?

Aims, intentions and expectations. Three beautiful sisters. Too bad I can't comprehand.

And those words
they stung
but we're not done
left to be hung
or meant otherwise?

Definitely the latter. Is it merely a one-sided game? Funny. Some things are quickly overlooked. I bet you don't know what's on my mind too. Again, please ask. But then again, what am I to say when 'we' were left abandoned on the streets?

Accountability. Transparency. Bullshit. They meant nothing, just lip service.

We are going around in circles. History is on repeat. Not the first and not the last. A prediction? Probably, unless the course of the repulsive force is made to change. It's not about you, me or us. It's them.

Learn to say "Let's go!" instead of "Go!".

-

Hi, just a boring day to begin with. Econs was cancelled because of the release of the A level results. Long break, managed to study a little. GP. Stoned. Couldn't understand why 'the whites' don't get my point.. or are they just feigning ignorance? Churned out two measly paragraphs while they yakked away. Ms Gopal will go "I thought I told you so..." on Tuesday. I'm bracing myself for the worst. Oh well, no way am I going to present cowshit.

Haven't felt so high in such a long time. I'm so proud of myself. Got a gut feeling the grade that I'll be getting for Chinese. Turns out to be true. Hoo, trust a woman's instinct!! Wu lao shi was kind enough to _________. Told this teacher about my result. He thought I was anxious, I think.

Me: No, it's true.

Teacher: Actually, I can go to the staff room, click a few buttons, check for your name, wait for it to appear on the screen and check, and double check it is you and then confirm it is you, compare your name against my namelist, compare your nric and tadah!

Me: WTH?!
That's my result can!

Teacher: Errr..

Ok, i exaggerated. He didn't say that much.

C hinese. No complains. It taints my cert, that's all.

Ruoyi was making comments like approaching, one metre, arrived, exit. Sounds like introducing Singapore's Next Top Model. HAHA.

DOM Bonn lives up to his name. Wet, slippery and warm. Hey you dirty fellas, I was talking about his tongue. Tongue up on an oily, slightly curved surface? Yucks. Not a topic you would want to talk about while eating.

Drooping eyelids.

Bye.

crocs

2007-03-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

Guess where my beloved class went today?

Crocodile farm!

HAHAHA.

Mr Khoo and his brilliant idea! Was pretty apprehensive at first, cos I so much wanted to visit the parliament house/supreme court. Oh well, we got to learn a lot more about crocs. They are a lazy bunch, moving only when a chicken is about to be tossed into the pool. Even then, they merely shifted a few inches from their original position.

And so, we learnt that crocs can jump! Somehow they are attracted to UMBRELLAS. The weather has not been kind to us this afternoon and there we were, a colourful brigade made up of members of club 18. JS moment of madness came when this female croc prepared herself to lunge at him. HAHA. She's aroused..... OH MY. Mr Khoo spent $46 on keychains meant for us! So glad he's my CT! HAHA.

I'm not one who is particularly concerned about pimples or for that matter, acne problems. But this time, I gotta complain. I've got a pimple wedged in between my eyelids! You can practically feel that lump scratching your eyeball like a grain of sand. Ouch.

-

It's all about tests tests and more tests next week, not forgetting Chem SPA on wednesday.

WT_?!

And there's inter-house soccer.

This year sucks big time. Finishing a topic is no fun. Instead, it reeks of an incoming test.
Oh, did I mention a math test tomorrow? Flunk it baby... I'll be too pre-occupied with getting my chinese A level result anyway. In fact, I think the test on complex numbers is kind of bullshit. A test on the last day of term 1?! One which I can afford not to study?

Unless they are making us go back during the hols...

DAMN.

-

big one
don't run
don't wait
please, be my escape

TIRED

2007-03-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

Please stop.

crazy uncles, us and BALLS

2007-02-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

Things turn out pretty fine don't they? Well, today was really WOOHOO.

NY has cleaner a better grandstand, seriously.

The toilet was big/huge/large/wide?? Hey, the hair dryer was duper cool. Can create MV.

Eunice.

They were trying to pull each others shorts down. LOL. Anyway,

Guess who?

Hopped all the way to Ikea. Brr, the rain sucks, but meatballs was heavenly ((:

Did lots of crazy stuff!

Horse riding for free.

Battle of the titans.

Ouch!

Clementi sure has lots of weirdos. One uncle walked close to me and went

hungry eh?

me: wth??

Uncle #2 came up to us and stared at us for awhile. Finally he asked

ni men yao she me?

Us: HUH??

Uncle #3 was driving along the road and he shouted something. Couldn't remember what it was.

Somehow they are all uncles. Hmm..

Ohohohoho..suddenly remembered block test is round the corner. Jia you people!!!

blistering effect

2007-02-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

Statistics was WOW. HAHA!

Wrote Sihui an essay for her birthday! She must be so touched =X
Squeezed in lots of scientific terms including LCP and simple harmonic motion. HAHA. It was titled no pun intended. Quite a simple essay, but enjoy it girl!! (:

Soccer. Earned 2 more blisters in my heels. Crap. Now tell me,
Sunday will be WOOHOO.

-

So apparently things are just going downhill
just give her a cue
and she'll stop loving you.
A red red rose,
she's in comatose
just a dose
it seems
to spread from coast to coast

because of (damn) you

2007-02-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

And you had to come along to wreck it
joining in the chorus of condemnation
Why, when everything was in place
or it was an illusion
with no proper conclusion?

-

New doubts have surfaced and I find myself shaking uncontrollably....in anger.
I don't need to pry open my toes just to prove to you that I really need to wear slippers. Probably it was my fault right from the start- I just wasn't clear enough and you didn't understand, but you DIDN'T ASK.

Wth, how wrong I was. Utter foolishness!

So I thought I had found someone decent finally. Not that I'm madly in love with you (damn it), but I thought you were gracious enough to ask politely. Definitely not during a test and in front of someone else when I was within earshot. Yeah, maybe you were just pissed with the commotion? Damn it. That doesn't mean you can be skeptical about the whole thing. Don't expect me to mourn like Metarazzi. I'm not. And if that was what you have always thought of me, then FINE. I don't give a damn. Since I can't change you opinions then I might as well sit in a corner and watch you destroy that image of me.

How on earth did I get into this fucking mess???

Not that I wish to gain sympathy, I don't need it. Your understanding? Yeah, maybe.... but then again..maybe not. Why should I? You are not my CT or a friend; just an aquaintance, someone who I'm not close to at all. By the way, if Mr Khoo isn't complaining, who are you to tell me off?
TRUST. He trusts that I'm not lying and I'm not. Yes, I'm grateful for his confidence in me. Damn you if you say that I'm misplacing his trust. I just felt humiliated on the spot. Totally fucked up.

That was the last straw..

Damn the next bastard who is doubtful.

-

At least there are people who care(: They are what you truly call FRIENDS, not some random guy calling you Bro for no reason. A big THANK YOU to you girls!!!! ((:

-

Those thoughts
I used to be unfettered with
are more than reality

let it burn

2007-02-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn

Fat burning exercises

1) Copying math notes -.-
2) Cramming equations for tomorrow's test
3) Soccer!

WOAH! Today's training was tiring. So simple to describe.

And it had to be under the sun! (:

My boobs are too big. Eh, I mean.. BOOTS. Gonna grab Jinyu's. Hey, I think we found that AEP freak, no? Tanny gave him a middle finger O.O

His glare was pretty scary. He wasn't looking at me! FORTUNATELY.

But it may not be him after all.

Can't concentrate on complex numbers. There's a match at 3.30am!!! Liverpool vs Barcelona

Wth, I wanna watch!!

Boo, blisters on my feet. Pity them.

Busy days ahead....

Let love in

mushrooms on your feet- eat it!

2007-02-20T21:28:00.001+08:00

Supposed to be doing my Math tutorial now, but well, the lure of blogging was too great. Have been thinking of something for quite a while, but I guess I will reveal it when the time is right.

Got a rather shocking news in the afternoon while doing a 'research'. The fungal infection can spread to the whole foot, thus it has to be treated early.

Come again?

YES, it is capable of spreading to the ENTIRE foot.

Imagine your whole feet burning with itch and covered in ugly scales? WTH. What if I had been stubborn enough not to visit the doctor? AND such an infection normally doesn't heal without the administration of medication.

If this wasn't bad enough, the treatment has to continue for approximately 2 weeks after the symptons have disappeared.

Slippers oh slippers... this girl's best friend?

By the way, I'm really grateful for an understanding CT! Not that it really mattered here, but I did overheard this other CT who chided his student

'I don't see anything wrong with your feet!'

That girl may have skipped classes and come up with a dumb excuse, but I just can't stop wondering if such a statement was necessary. Our feet doesn't have to be nicely wrapped up in a cast or bandage to make everyone convinced.

Don't be quick to jump to conclusions.

Yup, I know some of my classmates are doubtful of my condition. All they know is one side of the story nor have they personally seen the infection itself. To say that I'm not at all bothered by their doubtfulness is a partial truth. Does that make it a lie then?

You bet.

And why?

It's just not within my principle to be misunderstood by others. Say I'm sensitive, I don't care. Being judged based on lies and fallacies is one of the greatest woe that can befall on anyone (according to me, of course!). It's a humiliation of my dignity and my sense of justice.

My past few entries are pretty much the same. Seems like I can't get enough of ranting. Not true. I'm blogging, mind you. In real life, I'm still this sweet lil gurl...

RIGHT?

At least I'm glam (most of the time).

CNY

2007-02-18T15:25:00.000+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!!!

HONG BAO NA LAI!!!

After yesterday's dinner all I could do was

BURPPP

Damn filling can! HAHA. Slept at 3am in the morning, limbs weary and mind blank...

but hey.. I actually dreamt of the Akha kids! Here's how it went..

Rushed from Chiang Rai airport to Jakarta and then back to NYJC. No your eyes are not playing tricks on you.. An Akha kid in NYJC!!

Must be due to the food. Speaking of which, I wonder how much I have to run on Wed to burn off the excess calories. And with all the New Year goodies, I can foresee people falling sick! Muahahaha....hopefully teachers will get a sore throat and cancel classes..

Damn wicked lah!!! It's our loss anyway =(

Can't wait to shop during this long break, but.. there's an Ionic Equilibria test on Thur, right after CNY.

How cool.

-

Actually I don't get the point of reunion dinners when I'm aware of the fact that families break up in the end. It kinda affected my mood in the evening plus I had an untimely headache. Argh. Why do people find it difficult to keep strong ties? Why do they push ninety nine percent of the job to a single person?

Maybe my parents are too good-natured.

How can a reunion dinner possibly keep you in touch with one another? Can a whole year's activity simply be summarised in one night?

Almost went insane last night. I mean, famly bonds nowadays are so superficial and the thank you at the end of a dinner just means thank you for doing that sai gang.

That is just one perpective, but could it have been better or worse? It seems like nobody has anything better to say other than

Hi, how was school? Oh, so you are going to ______ next year?

End of conversation.

Maybe one 'meeting' in a year is better than none. But how much better can it be? Just knowing the fact that I'm alive and kicking?

Superficial bonds.

Every reunion dinner feels like the last. What if (touch wood) my grandparents pass away? Are they going to stop meeting altogether?

Just like how a tussle for assets a few years back stop certain disgruntled relatives from even recognising each other. Is that the so-called kinship? I really don't get it. If my uncle can take the trouble to take care of my grandpa, providing shelter and food when all you did was to 'fulfil the quota' of visiting him during CNY, who are you to ask for more? Furthermore, you are born with limbs that function and bestowed with good health. By virtue of that, shouldn't you be grateful?

Then again, you people complain that he believes in gender inequality. Agreed. But hey, he was born in an era where girls were taught and expected to be submissive and guys were the breadwinners. Stop it hypocrites, some of you still believe in that now.

Greed is not enough to describe you people, really. Fancy brothers and sisters bringing each other to court and fighting on the streets. It's almost laughable. Too bad I was only a kid then. Even my parents couldn't keep this fact from me. LOL. I guess they assumed that I didn't understand what they were talking about.

So you see how easily family bonds can be broken? Because it was not deep-rooted from the start. Just put a loaded grandad who divides his money unequally and eureka!

Welcome to the adult world???

-

Anyway, it's supposed to be a joyous occasion. Can't stop myself from thinking though. Helps to maintain healthy braincells. HAHA.

Oi! where's my hong bao????

knowing who i am

2007-02-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

-The Goo Goo Dolls, Iris

pre-cny

2007-02-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

Realy amazed at Sihui's ability to reach out to others. Finally I managed to shake LKK's (not lao kok kok ok!) hand after knowing him for slightly more than a year. It's pretty cool how a simple 'hi' can do wonders!

CNY celebration was seriously a whole lot of crap. I'm being honest here. Well, the truth always stings right? Maybe they should come up with a bazaar or the like and not unveil the 30th anniversary logo when half the hall was empty. If I had known...

should have ponned right?

Oops.

Hoohoo, watched Legally Blonde during GP today. Heard the conclusion from Mic le... anti-climax. Haha, I'm a bad reader of mystery books. That explains it. Anyway, P&C lecture was horrendous. We were made to copy chunks of information and yar, we were the rate determining step -.-

More like time determining objects.

Moreover SOME girls decked in their secondary school uniform were making a din at the back. Screw them lah. Normally we would either tolerate it or simply move to 'greener pastures' (think Physics lecture), but Math lectures are full house type. Bo bian. I so much wanted to stuff foolscap into their mouth.

Was folding paper cranes after school. Whee, finally I can remember the steps! My first crane was obese! HAHA!

Been slacking recently. Quite guilty. But it's CNY....ok...

excuses.

Something interesting from youtube. Couldn't upload the video though ):

I'm bringing Physics back...yeah
Those other sciences dunno how to act...yeah
You wanna take it next year when you're back...yeah
So sign up for it and don't you slack...yeah

Take em to some units...

Sound and waves...
You see equations baby they're your slave...
Light is so cool, hey it's a rave...
There's no other science that makes me feel this way...

Take em to the forces!

Come join physics,
Go ahead be gone with it,
Knowledge you lack,
Go ahead be gone with it,
VIP,
Go ahead be gone with it,
Delta d
Go ahead be gone with it
Let me see what you're torquin' with,
Go ahead be gone with it,
Boy is it hip!
Go ahead be gone with it,
It makes me smile,
Go ahead be gone with it,
Go ahead child,
Go ahead be gone with it,
And get your physics on,
Get your physics on!

I'm bringing physics back,
Them other fields dunno how to act,
We think its special but you're the judge of that,
Cause you're burnin up like cars on a track... (Cause of friction!)

Take em to the units...

I'm bring physics back,
You students watch how we can attack,
If you love bio or chemistry watch you're back,
Cause you'll love physics and that's a fact!

-

CNY. It's the year of the pig!

Baby boom.

Piglets on board O.O

-

Wrong choices

yawns

2007-02-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

Anger management. I need it. I'm practising double standards. Oops.

Caught doing rather stupid things. Attempted a rap and Mrs Tan went like

WHAT'S THE ANSWER?!

Thou shall not divide by zero. Bleah.

Don't blame me for this.

I'm glam, no?

Ok, sometimes.

Physics tutorial. The ultimate unglam moment unfolded. Lee laughed the loudest. Even khoo eng couldn't control himself.

-.-

Anyway, Mocha is my energiser (:

Mrs Wang was so nice lah! Had fun teasing her per se. And that little cheeky moment formed my third embarrasing moment. HAHA!

It's CNY celebration tomorrow and we get to wear our home clothes. Don't know what to wear lah!!No, I don't need to make more trips to town. Inspiration will do the trick. Try pairing a bottom with a lao sai coloured shirt ;)

Soccer is not for the faint hearted. Keli and Cheyl injured their hand. Maria fell flat face-down and my left cheek hurts.

Ouch.

Coffeeshopped with lots of gossips.

Gossip mongers! HAHA.

-

Valentine's Day was a pretty much hush-hush affair. Flowers and chocolates. They are making me jealous k! HAHA. Felt guilty. Should have bought chocolates! They rox~ Had dinner at Cafe Cartel. Saw Mr Sim and this baby's father! Couldn't stop laughing at his/her (??) MUM. Wahahaha.. sorry lah.

Serangoon Gardens is not the place to dine unless you want to bump into familiar faces ;)

-

Don't pretend to know. The rule of thumb is to be humble.

Can it be a personal prejudice?

uncensored

2007-02-11T18:47:00.000+08:00

It's been a whirlwind of activities.

Finding laughter in my classmates, bitching about certain dumbass, enjoying soccer and the company of the soccerettes,

but not breaking a tray of appratus and the mockery involved.

Ken seriously needs to know when to shut up and go.

Anyway, I feel a change. Somehow it came and the bad news is, I don't know WHY and HOW. Suddenly I've changed my thinking and perspective of things. The way I handle situations and the kind of image I want to portray. Actually I don't care if others see me as unfeeling and ungracious. In this time and age we all need to know how to stand up on our feet, to judge/feel/ sense/think/comment/pioritise.

There are certain stuff that I may have done before and that doesn't equate to me repeating them. In fact I think they are stupid. Looking back, I sometimes wish I should have done things differently. But then again..

Speaking to others really mean something now. When I say no I REALLY MEAN IT. No more fickle mindedness where the other half of the brain go HEY wait...

It'll be interesting ot see how others respond to this. Too bad some are still living in the old world. Knowing what is possible and realistic blows them a hundred miles away.

Why?

I don't get it. It's either you are pregnant or not....... right?

Sometimes I guess they either lack a reality check or are just too ill-informed. It's rather hilarious, even up to a ridiculous point where one small action can induce a near spasm reaction.

HAHAHA.

Have I grown out of it or am I just being a sore loser? Hmmm... No, it really doesn't make sense to sit around going around the same topic a gazillion times. It's boring, it's useless, it's counter-productive. Maybe it's interesting to some, but I think it sucks to the core knowing that it yields no results.

Don't try to thwart nature. Let it be. If you can't change it, then adapt to it. If adapting doesn't work, then forget it. Why continue to wax lyrical about how challenging it was and it is when apprantly nothing has ever come out of it?

Again I don't get it.

Because you can almost predict the outcome. No kick...

I hope I'm not doing anyone a disservice. I really don't want to continue down this slippery slope. We are WHO WE ARE, not Jack and Jills. True, we do not conform to ideologies and stereotypes set by society, but we should not use that as an excuse to harbour false hopes.

Dream all we can. After all, without dreams set by our forefathers, we wouldn't live in this concrete jungle like we do now. BUT it's different. Dreaming is not an end to itself. The actions that accompany it are what people see, praise and criticise.

Should we not concentrate on things that are more beautiful? Life is not just about me, you and them.

Quit playing games with my heart.

---

BITCHES in action.

Ah yes, I'm talking about Monday.

Can't imagine running around with asswipers.

Maybe I should start throwing netballs at her.

AND HER FRIEND.

Damn her for skipping soccer training because of a silly pimple.

Oh well, she hasn't turn up for training since ???

Was she sacked?

Hopefully. I don't know. Hah. Like who cares.

Maybe Mummy has yet to feed you enough milk for you to grow wings strong enough to fly.

Hoo, so Miss Tan thinks that she is one of those rare breed with natural talents and continue to wax lyrical about how PIMPLES/PIANO/BALLET/ART LESSONS affect her attendence. See how she flaunts and make heads turn while she casts scornful looks at her teammates.

If such things are more important to you then continue to do what you are doing. I can't (nobody in fact) can be bothered with you. Quit fucking around with your immature FRIEND. A very wrong concept of beauty you've got here. It doesn't represent everything and correct me if I'm wrong- take early leave because of a fucking small pimple. Fuck you for complaining and whining so much.

GROW UP.

Who in heaven and earth gave you the authority the right to judge and make baseless comments. So you think you belong to a higher class?

A higher class of bitches I bet.

My dear Miss Tan, if someone with an attitude problem affects you so much, then kindly fuck yourself. So does skipping training and coming up with dumb excuses count as having an attitude problem?

---

If you are not directly involved then shut your big mouth. Yes, I am irritated by your actions, just like how you were irritated by my friend. But if I can choose not to call you names then I don't see any reason why you can't. Oh well, there's a line separating those who can control themselves and those who can't. Being the latter, you can't resist the urge to scream

WAH, CB ARH!

whenever you see her. You too have to learn to grow up. How much are you paid to do something like that? Does it really guarantee an I-win-you mentality? Miss Ye arh Miss Ye... maybe you are just another bitch in disguise or you are simply trying to fit into the cult of being cool.

Cool?

Shove that word up your ass lah.

---

saturday

2007-01-28T13:55:00.000+08:00

Ah..yes..Saturday..

a temporary respite

I haven't felt so damned in such a long time..

tongotong was still as great. Got caught in a jam on my way to SOT. Luckily he was late too. Heh.

Happy Breast day!!

HAHAHA.

His joke.

This week I

1) became a dragonboater for an hour

2) got tattooed during econs

3) finished why 'men lie and women cry' in an hour

4) halfway through why 'men don't listen and women can't read maps' (a trend started by Bonn)
5) accused my teachers of lying.. HAHA!

6) started wearing shoes

7) caught UNGLAM Lawrence

8) met with an accident (Thursday's hightlight)

9) pulled out of bai yun gang

10) made numerous blunders with my words

11) found another Liverool fan

12) realised that I like Aaron Lennon

Erm... yes,

I wished I had his pace.

Friendly with MJC on 7 Feb and training's been changed to Fri. *smacks head*

Monday night study anyone?

Yesterday's class committee workshop was dead awkward. They made us do PUBLIC SPEAKING. Heng I was the last and they ran out of time. Pris Lee was the first to go on stage due to my big mouth. HAHA! And there was good 'ol Justina!

So with the Jan drawing to a close, I really hope that for the rest of the year I'll manage to squeeze in time for R&R. No, it's not rest and recreation. But these are the things that I'll do if I'm left to my own devices.

Singapore won Malaysia on penalties. LOL. That poor Malaysian player. Sis was funny lah! Especially when Mustafic took the penalty! But hey, given the Lion's lack of prowess up front how will they fare in the finals? Goodness, I'm cynical!

night in thought
and day in toyle

more importantly...

2007-01-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

It has been a WEEK since I last blogged!

Headed down to SOT at 8am yesterday. *yawns* Couldn't even stop my eyelids from falling. Tongtong was good though. Heh. For a question that looks a tad too innocent..

he could analyse it so thoroughly and leave you

speechless.

Oh, and have you heard of teaching GP using algebra? So cool lah!!

And I felt so small. SL and I are staying. Felt so qian bian when we asked him about our 'predicament'. He even said we could join some RJC students in order to 'stretch' ourselves.

No thanks man :D

Anyway, last week was full of mugging AGAIN because of the infection. Hopefully it'll be ok and I will be able to kick some balls tomorrow :D

Night studied with gang on Thur and Fri. Ms Teo gave us sweets! HAHA.

Had a little debate (more like discussion) with SH about perception. She said I'm just like her former self. Heh.

Ok, but something made me really disturbed and uncomfortable on wed. Shan't elaborate much, but I'm totally against the re-branding of NSP (known as SDP for now). It just creates an elitist system and streams the students into the haves and have-nots.

Whatever lah.

P has a classic what-do-you-think look everytime you start to quiz him about something.

Mr Low said I'm motivated

O.O

P didn't want to say more

>.<

HAHAHA.

Feng diao!

child soldiers

2007-01-14T16:53:00.000+08:00

Researching on 'The Child Soldiers' and coming up with the possible solutions is really demoralising.

Why are children in other parts of the world suffering in my world of Macdonalds?

0.o

2007-01-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

School's expectations for the A levels

AABA

HAHAHA.

"As long as your going to be thinking anyway, think big."
-Donald Trump

Eh, think of how to fix your hair Mr Trump =P

GOODNESS. Why the sudden fascination with hair?!?!

I mean.. hair on the head -.-

these walls

2007-01-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

Seems like I'm on 'hiatus mode'. Eh, just busy with work lah. Nothing much except for some fungus having fun in between my toes -.-

Damn itchy can!! Didn't play netball yesterday cos I had to get to the doc fast. Now my skin looks crumpled. EEKS. Didn't go for training today. Goodness, I see myself growing...

horizontally.

HAHA.

And there's an ulcer in my mouth. Waiting for something to happen to my hand so that I can have hand foot and mouth disease?! o.0

Ok, enough grumbling (:

I think I'm speaking too much, really. Cos usually nothing good comes out. Heh. 2 'disasters' in the morning and OH MY. Can't stop gawking at someone's hideous hairstyle. Had to present them to me during Physics lecture somemore. Can't spike for nuts lah.

Oops, see.. proven point.

Aye, P is super nice lah!!! Wahhhh... Hopefully he didn't get affected by what my classmates' actions. Guilty. But I'm powerless to stop them from doing what they did =( They didn't get where he was coming from (doubt many would anyway). I think that's why they acted that way =((

GP test tomorow. Even though it's my fav subject, I'm not really keen to sit for it. Just feeling the weight of the workload. Every morning's not a fresh start, but *sigh* another day. Live like there's no tomorrow (wait, sounds like an essay qns!) seems to be...some rubbish thrown to the ground, trampled and spat on. Wahh... these walls of rigidity.. is suffocating. And hey, it's like..the 2nd week of school?!?! Woohoo! Hopefully my body mechanism (and I wish for all my friends (:) will not break down so soon! Eh, at least after the A's ((:

Sounds contradicting. Aiyah, whatever lah!

Mr Maclaurin, be nice ok? =P

...2007

2007-01-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

Secretly using my dad's laptop now >.<

My last few posts were rather short and uh....uninteresting. HAHA. Feel like I've lost my blogging touch. Oh ya, before I forget...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I was glad I chose to attend the covenant service instead of going over to yizhe's house. LOL. Was feeling pretty upset over certain stuff, but yar.. I guess those testimonies kind of touched me *sob*

There was this doctor who was diagnosed with Parkinson's. He didn't blame God, because he actually prayed for a closer walk with Him.

BUT

He realised that it is only through this he is able to turn to God, not man. In medical terms, there is no cure for Parkinson's. No man, not by strength and ability can be able to heal him.

Of course, you can choose to blame God for inflicting such an illness on you. But hey, you have a choice to look at it from a different perspective ;)

And resolutions?

1. Stop backsliding

2. Score well for A's

3. Become more mature! HAHA!

4. NY soccerettes to get into the semis!

(:

how great is thy love

2006-12-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

Conveniently forgotten.

NICE ONE.

walking away

2006-12-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

DAMNIT

Cockroach invasion part 2

HAHAHA. Heng I wasn't asleep till 3 in the morning. Imagine having a cockroach (maybe even 2 of them) running across your body.

DAMN.

And I actually STEPPED on one.

Ended up sleeping in the living room. Stupid creatures. ROARRS!

statues may cry

unspoken

2006-12-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

This year's different. I can feel it.

Open the doors of adulthood!

you and i both loved

2006-12-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

I think I slept through the entire sermon =(

My bad...

Slept at 3 am last night, woke up at 6 plus. Felt like a zombie without a sense of direction.

Very soon we'll be making New Year resolutions. Gotta get cracking! (:

Ok, I've only finished econs and chem. HAHA. Will the teachers really collect and MARK them? LOL! Getting quite sick of these mugging life even before school starts! But the Akha children reminds me of otherwise. HaizZ.

I'm suddenly very into songs sung by people like jason mraz, michael buble, jamie cullum etc. HAHA!

Meanwhile.. have a blessed Christmas everyone!!!!

I made a promise to God
that I will become a better person
a hundred pages forward
who knows?

let me go

2006-12-22T14:59:00.000+08:00

Nowadays my books are boring me. That's quite unheard of in the past.

WHAT HAPPENED?!

Needless to say.. I'm not looking forward to 3 Jan.

The new google account is so damn weird too. Tried and I can't use templates from blogskins. The given templates are well.. boring, plain and unimaginative.

Yucks.

I'm sticking to the old blogger (:

HOHOHO!!!

2006-12-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

Tis the season to be jolly
falalalalaaaa... lalalala..

Here's why I'll be enjoying Christmas this year

1) New gizmos

I became a Starhub fan overnight when I learnt from my dad that they are giving away free lappies. =D

Ipod nano. Shall invest my savings in this dude.

2) Priceless lessons learnt

Just now while showering it actually dawned on me how much I've matured this year.

what a difference a day makes..

HAHA. Imagine a year!!

I've learnt how to deal with situations that I've been thrown into rather unwillingly, stepping up and say this is what I want, having the courage to stand up for what I believe, take the initiative, meet people who share the same passion, watch a sunrise, saw 12 shooting stars in a night, saw my first firefly, understanding what true friendship is all about, appreciate the fact that as much as I'd like to, I can't have control over everything...

Of course, there were regrets but the important thing is to move on and make the best out of everything [quote PP].

Oh well, let bygones be bygones.... there are some things which you really want to change, people whom you want to praise and apologise to..

THEY'VE ALL BECOME A PART OF HISTORY.

Move along pris.